What is life but a series of thresholds?
Your last days of childhood,
and then your last days of high school,
your last days of university,
your last days as a single person,
your last days as married people without a kid,
and your last day before your kid goes to preschool.
The rest of my life is going to be that very complex and bitter exchange
where I’m leaving something sweet and wonderful behind
in the understanding that I need to take on something ahead of me.
— Jonathan Auxier, YA author, quoted in World magazine
Jane said she’d never heard of anyone liking fogs before but she didn’t mind trying. …
“That’s why Camilla and I got married,” said Denniston as they drove off. “We both like Weather. Not this or that kind of weather, but just Weather. It’s a useful taste if one lives in England.”
“How ever did you learn to do that, Mr. Denniston?” said Jane. “I don’t think I should ever learn to like rain and snow.”
“It’s the other way round,” said Denniston. “Everyone begins as a child by liking Weather. You learn the art of disliking it as you grow up. Haven’t you ever noticed it on a snowy day? The grown-ups are all going about with long faces, but look at the children—and the dogs? They know what snow’s made for.”
~ C.S. Lewis in That Hideous Strength
My grandchildren providing the illustration
The tag line for my blog could also be my life’s theme:
Solid joys, deep sorrows, aggressive hope.
Last year a persistent, present grief pressed down my heart. I knew, though, that I couldn’t abandon joy. Grief would need to make room for a roommate: joy was moving in. They would have to cohabit.
I remembered that metaphor as I read this line from an early C.S. Lewis poem:
Be as the Living ones that know
Enormous joy, enormous woe.
The poems are in Spirits in Bondage, a collection of 40 poems written by Lewis between the ages of 16 and 19.
These were the last words I read last night after a lovely Mother’s Day. Hannah Grieser’s book The Clouds Ye So Much Dread is my current favorite slow read. I’ve flagged so many pages that it looks like the United Nations. More quotes to come!
Q. What is it that drives you at this point?
A. The experience of making music — really, the joy of making music is what I was put here for, I believe.
And I kind of knew — I knew right away once I’d started to kind of get it right, in my teens — once I’d started to experience the joy of getting a result from practice — that this was my destiny, I suppose.
And I always thank God [I] intuitively knew that music was the most important part of it. It wasn’t what I could get from music, it was what I could give to it.
When you asked me the question ‘What is it like?’ — well, I wish people could experience what it’s like to be really focused on doing something musical and have it work and be in tune and harmony. And that can only come, I believe, if I am serving music, rather than trying to manipulate it to my ends, you know.
August 14, 2004
Transcribed from the DVD “Sessions for Robert J”
I’m making a valiant effort to thin out my very thick personal library. Like any parting, there is grief, but I’m choosing instead to grip the joy and gratitude I’ve garnered from my books. When I picked up this 1232 page brick I faced the glacial reality that I would never read all the words again.
The next best thing was to read the bits I’d underlined in neat pencil.
Because I’m a wee bit obsessive about my books, I knew I had to copy those adored sentences into my commonplace book.
Two long road trips, several shorter drives, the odd minutes gleaned here and there… and I’ve added 30 pages to my journal of quotes from Les Misérables. All the joy, people. All the joy/grief/delight/disgust/admiration of this magnum opus comes flooding back.
It was the next best thing to reading every word. And so many quotes!
One thing remains. Giving this book a good home. A place where it can sit on a shelf, get a few loving glances with the whispered promise to read it sometime.
If my penciled copy of Hugo’s masterpiece sounds like something you want (free), leave a comment. In a week I’ll make a decision where it goes and mail/hand it to that person. Otherwise I’ll donate it.