How Can I Keep from Reading? Pt. 3


Why I Read, Part 3

My third answer is: I read because I’m tired.

I went through a long spell (5+ years) of insomnia. It was impossible to turn my mind off and go to sleep; even more difficult to return to sleep after waking at 2:00 – 4:00 a.m.  All recommended remedies were futile. My jaw clenched in frustration. At least if I read, I didn’t feel like the time was a total waste. A favorite coping mechanism was to go into the living room and read. My object was to become chilled through. Then I slinked into the warm bed and back into that sweet unconscious state.

Sal knew that she would not sleep so she took Emma to bed with her, hoping that the well-known story would soothe her troubled spirit and dissipate her worried thoughts…
~ from The Four Graces by D.E. Stevenson

Since I was diagnosed with sleep apnea and now use a CPAP, I’m sleeping 7-8.5 hours straight, which is wealth untold.

But I still use books to soothe myself to sleep. The hour between going to bed and the book falling on my face is my primary reading time. Each evening my husband asks me, “What are you reading?” and I give a short recap, sometimes reading a sample.

There are two kinds of bedtime books: books that put you to sleep, and books that make you lose sleep. I usually choose the book whose deadline (library, friend-loans, book club, self-imposed) is most pressing. Too many times I’ve listed an unread book for sale or swap (cold logic insisting I’ll never read it); when the email “Sold. Ship Now.” arrives, I panic and decide to read it before I mail it. Even when it’s 400 pages. #fearofmissingout




4 thoughts on “How Can I Keep from Reading? Pt. 3

  1. Delighted you read/have read D E Stevenson. I too read if sleep eludes…often my Bible for that quietness of spirit, othertimes to meet various time limits. Ah…books…

  2. Carol, I have only read two D.E. Steveson books- Katherine Wentworth and The Marriage of Katherine. I read both of them when I was very young, and re-read them just a couple years ago. How I love them! I should try some of her other books. So glad your CPAP fixed your insomnia problem. What a blessing. Both of my sisters wear CPAPs and feel they were life-transforming.

    • Hi Debbie! I don’t think I’ve read those titles. If you have Amazon Prime and a Kindle app, you can read several of D.E. Stevenson’s books through the Kindle Lending Library.

      I was SO AFRAID of having to use a CPAP, but I’m so thankful for it now!

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