Going, Going

      

I’m headed to Portland, OR & the famous Powell’s Books.
It’s the largest independent used and new bookstore in the world.
One entire city block.
Here is a picture of just one aisle.


I am going to my first (real) book reading: Kathleen Norris!

I will see a lovely friend…

and have a heart to heart with my cousin
about her journey converting to Judaism…

Then I’m zipping up to visit my Seattle kids and perhaps
read a book to my yet-to-be-born grandson, Noah.
I hope he kicks a little…

After which, I pray Hurricane Kyle goes away
so I can enjoy this tranquil garden in Maine
at the beautiful home my sister-in-law and brother have made.

And when one visits Maine, you know what one eats, don’t you?

My friend who happens to be married to my brother
has promised lots of walks.
I plan to take copious photographs.


New England in the fall!

I used to stay home when my guys went hunting, heh heh heh…

Sweet Gratitude

 
It’s my birthday!
There seems to be a slew of September birthdays.

If I died today, I would have no complaint.
The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases.
His mercies are new every morning.
Great is Thy faithfulness.

Joy is my wine,
Love is my food,
Sweet gratitude the air I breathe.

Eating Locally


Chris, our oldest son, is the locavore in this picture.
The animal is an organic grass-fed, grass-finished, free-range bull elk
who lived his life about 15 miles from our house.

“Hoffer” harvested this huge animal with a bow and arrow,
a skill which requires great dollops of
strength, stealth, endurance and patience.

This evening, our garage will transform into a butcher shop.
Several hundred pounds of delicious elk roasts, filets, and burger.
Cut, wrapped, marked, frozen.
It’s a family tradition that occurs almost every year.

Butchering an elk and canning applesauce
are the closest I come to living the Little House lifestyle
I adored when I was a suburban girl reading Laura Ingalls Wilder books.

Oh, How I Love Onions

First night backpacking is always a winner: chunks of sautéd elk filet, marinated in garlic, wine, soy sauce, and lemon juice.  Pasta Alfredo, made the night before and heated up, a glass of wine and call it delicious. 

After that the menu gets very processed: cup of noodles, instant soup, instant hot chocolate, grilled hotdogs…sigh.  It is the kind of food which messes up the gastric system, which is all we will say about that delicate topic. 

On a night when each man made his own meal, Jesse and Rachel wrapped potatoes in foil, tucked it into the coals and started cutting an onion.  Kalamata olives, sundried tomatoes, and green onion tops were added, wafting up intoxicating aromas. 

Look at that! 
Would you rather have that or Ramen noodles? 
I made myself a promise.
Never again will I go backpacking without bringing an onion along.


clean up the next day

A Day for Remembering

Dear Chris,

Days like today are good for remembering.  Remembering and giving thanks.  Because I am always very thankful for you, my firstborn son.  You were born with a sense of responsibility which is evident in this photo. 

•  Remember the pre-dawn in Grand Rapids when Dad took off for the airport to fly home?  The weight of commitment you felt on your twelve year old shoulders to keep us together as we drove two thousand miles home was almost too much.  I drove the car, but you navigated, took charge of your little brother, and encouraged me.

•  I remember walking with you to school the first day of first grade.  Your hair was slicked back, your face fresh, you looked preppy in the red and white striped knit shirt with a collar.   I cried all the way home, wanting one more moment of the way things used to be.  You and your brother cried  yourselves to sleep after we told you we planned to homeschool  six years later. 

•  I will never forget the afternoon you busted into the house after school with your long stride, jumped up for your ritual flick of the ceiling fan, and landed your size 13 feet  1/4 inch away from your baby brother’s face.  God was merciful to our family that day.  Your tender heart was broken at the possibility that you could have hurt/killed him.  Remember our wailing brought Dad running wet and naked down the stairs to see what was wrong!!

•  I am embarrassed to remember my pride in you as a baseball player.  Ugh!  I was an over-the-top mom and you were much more balanced about your abilities.  You took me aside after one game and said, “Mom, you were yelling ‘Strike him out Chris!  You’ve done it before, you can do it again!’ Mom, the batter and I both knew that I had never struck him out and your yelling gave him the mental advantage.”   But I have fond memories of watching you pitch and catch, of our car time driving to and from games, running situations, reviewing plays and just talking.  You taught me to love the game of baseball.

•  Your love of being on time often clashed with my perceived need to get everything done before we left.  This was a weekly seesaw we played getting to church.  But it was especially a dispute before long trips when I stayed up through the previous night working on my desk and was just starting to pack when you were ready to get into the car.  While I haven’t changed, I am theoretically on your side.  Keep it up.

•  Your father taught me to respect you in your growing manhood.  Another blushing memory!  I had the screamin’ meemies about your treatment of a warmup jacket.  Without saying a word to me, your Dad turned and looked you in the eye.  “Chris, you are 15 and we aren’t going to do much reminding anymore.  You can treat your possessions the way you want to and live with the consequences.  We won’t nag you; you are old enough to take care of yourself.”   And you were.

•  I remember when we two read through the Ralph Moody books simultaneously.  When I got a chance to read, I’d have to hunt out your hiding place and snatch the book.  When I finished I squirreled it in my own hiding spot and you’d have to search for it.

•  Last one:  I remember the car-crazy boy you and your brother were.  I was desperate to drum into you the fact that cars depreciate and houses appreciate.  When you were seventeen I sat you down and penciled out how you could use sweat equity to make money tax free.  You were so receptive and wanted to start right in.  You bought your starter home at 19 and have been making it wonderful for seven years.  I admire the way you learn new skills with each new home project. 

Happy 26th Birthday.  You are my Psalm 1 man.  I see God’s blessings in your life and rejoice.

Mom


Chris reading a birthday card

Car Talk

“[yawn]…I wish [yawn] that I had [yawn] more stam [yawn] ina,” I murmured to my indefatigable husband.

“If you lost some weight, you would get your wish,” replied my straightforward spouse.  “It’s just like the bushy tomatoes in the garden.  If they don’t get pruned soon, they are going to produce a few small tomatoes.  But if you cut back some of the extra shoots, you will be amazed at the fruit it bears.” 

Wow. 

What a perfect picture.  That’s my man: clarity and truth-telling with kindness.  It sounds so reasonable when he says it.

Reflecting over the weekend, I also realized that I got dehydrated and that contributed to my sense of weariness. 

It’s back to the basics:  pray, drink, move, give thanks, sleep.  All to the glory of God.

Useless Lumber

This Saturday is the Annual Garage Sale at the home of our great Patriarch and Matriarch.  Last night Curt hauled tables and our first load of “stuff” over to his folks’ house.  We have two days left to explore more nooks and crannies for possible sale items before people start flocking around Saturday morning at 6:30 a.m.  Dad and Mom’s neighborhood join forces, with up to thirty families selling stuff in a few blocks.   All in all, this weekend is a great source of encouragement and thankfulness. 

Garage sales are the great astringent of life.

They make me thankful for:

•   The incremental nature of annual cleaning.  If you never go through your stuff until you are almost dead, the overwhelming task would finish you off.  Each year we imagine we won’t find anything to sell after our thorough pruning a year prior.  We are either self-deceived (i.e. we didn’t clean as well as we thought) or our tastes and passions have changed (e.g. little bunny decorative items now fail to make us sigh with pleasure) or an item has served its useful life in our family (porta potty – don’t ask).  Here is the best part:  it gets easier every year.  One sees progress. That itself is a huge encouragement.

•    Because it is an annual project, you can focus on different areas in different years.  This year, my husband went into the attic.  Ayup.  I need to go through the linen closet and our CD collection.  The point is that you don’t have to do every thing every year.  Lord willing, and the creek don’t rise, we’ll do it again this time next year. 

•    The feeling of buoyancy that comes with letting go.  It is not quite as good as losing twenty pounds, but a close second. 

•    The sense of martyrdom and sacrifice.  One needs a brave and stolid heart.  My great relinquishment this year is two boxes of empty canning jars, which reduces my collection of empty canning jars from 120 to 104.  I remember with fondness a time with three hungry boys when those jars were full of applesauce, salsa, peaches and grape juice.  I worry about selling the empty jars, lest my sons forget the former glory days of their martyred mother. 

•    A renewed love and respect for my folks, the ones who gave me my husband.  They love the beauty of a clean and ordered life; I keep hoping if I stand close to them it will rub off on me.  Their example constantly inspires me, but on these weekends my love for them surges. 

While I surveyed my house for potential sale items last night, I listened to this delightful piece from Three Men in a Boat.


George said, “You know, we are on a wrong track altogether.  We must not think of the things we could do with, only of the things we can’t do without.”


George comes out really quite sensible at times.  You’d be surprised.  I call that downright wisdom, not merely as regards the present case, but with reference to our trip up the river of life generally.  How many people on that voyage load up the boat ‘til it is ever in danger of swamping with a store of foolish things which they think is central to the pleasure and comfort of the trip, but which are only really useless lumber?


How they pile the poor little craft mast high with fine clothes and big houses, with useless servants and a host of swell friends that do not care a tuppance for them, and that they do not care three ha’pennies for. [with…, with…, with…]

 

It is lumber, man, all lumber.  Throw it overboard!  It makes the boat so heavy to pull you nearly faint at the oars.  It makes it so cumbersome and dangerous to manage, you never know a moment’s freedom from anxiety and care, never gain a moment’s rest for dreamy laziness – no time to watch the windy shadows skimming lightly o’er the shallows, or the glittering sunbeams flitting in and out among the ripples, or the great trees by the margin looking down at their own image, or the woods all green and golden, or the lilies white and yellow, or the somber-waving rushes, or the sedges, or the orchids, or the blue forget-me-nots.


Throw the lumber over, man!  Let your boat of life be light, packed with only what you need – a homely home and simple pleasures, one or two friends, worth the name, someone to love and someone to love you, a cat, a dog, and a pipe or two, enough to eat and enough to wear, and a little more than enough to drink; for thirst is a dangerous thing.

                                    ~ Jerome K. Jerome