Patience. Hope.

 
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Patience, n. A minor form of despair, disguised as a virtue.
~  Ambrose Bierce

Durum!  Sed levius fit patientia
Quidquid corrigere est nefas.
~ Horace ~
translation:
This is hard indeed!
But whatever cannot possibly be amended
becomes lighter by patience.

Be patient my soul:
Thou hath suffered worst than this.
~ George Herbert

For the second time,
a planned trip to Seattle to see our little Noah
(born 12-29) has been postponed.
I told Carson, I am okay until I talk about it.
We hope for next week.

Patience.   Hope.
The stuff of life.

I don’t believe Ambrose Pierce, but he makes me laugh.
Horace is fun (and here is a quick Latin lesson:
Durum = hard, as in durum wheat or durable goods),
but Herbert hits the spot.

So this weekend, instead of holding Noah,
I’ll be printing W-2s and 1099s.
Oh joy!

Quote Collecting – 2008 Review

Those who have lost a dear one will appreciate the odd phenomenon of happiness after a period of grief:

At first, as the months went by, it was shameful to me when I would realize that without my consent, almost without my knowledge, something had made me happy.  And then I learned to think, when those times would come, “Well, go ahead.  If you’re happy, then be happy.”  No big happiness came to me yet, but little happinesses did come, and they came from ordinary pleasures in ordinary things: the baby, sunlight, breezes, animals and birds, daily work, rest when I was tired, food, strands of fog in the hollows early in the morning, butterflies, flowers.           ~ Hannah Coulter (my Book of the Year) by Wendell Berry   

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If you are suffering from the flu, please forgive this next quote from Barbara Pym’s Quartet in Autumn, but it busts me up.    

‘Of course David is here for his health,’ said Marjorie, coming back into the room and entering eagerly into the conversation. 

‘Do you find the country is doing you good?’ Letty asked.

 ‘I’ve had diarrhoea (sic) all this week,’ came the disconcerting reply. There was a momentary—perhaps no more than a split second’s—pause, but if the women had been temporarily taken aback, they were by no means at a loss.

‘Diarrhoea,’ Letty repeated, in a clear, thoughtful tone.  She was never certain how to spell the word, but felt that such a trivial admission was lacking in proper seriousness so she said no more.

‘Strong drink would do you more good than the eternal parish cups of tea,’ Marjorie suggested boldly. ‘Brandy, perhaps.’

He smiled pityingly, ‘All those English on package tours on the Costa Brava may find it helpful, but my case is rather different…’  The sentence trailed off, leaving the difference to be imagined.

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Soon after discovering Barbara Pym, I was delighted to find this reference to her in Margaret Visser’s Much Depends on Dinner .

Barbara Pym’s novels are full of sly insights into culinary anthropology; in them, “a bird’ is for when clergymen are invited for dinner: elevated, not too fleshly, and with a skin “gold-embroidered like a chasuble” as Proust put it.

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This travel quote doubles as philosophy:

There is no bad weather, only inappropriate clothing.   ~ Rick Steves

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Leslie Thomas’ elegant prose in Some Lovely Islands arrested me.  I thought he might be my “best new author” but after further research, he is not.  Still, I loved this book.

The mountain and sky fell upon each other like black wrestlers locked in a hold;

The church, which was halfway, like a cheerful slice of cream cake in the day, was a big shrouded thing at this dark hour…

Fat banks of fog…with a certain politeness stopped short and stood around just outside the harbour.

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Eleni Gage wrote North of Ithaka about returning to the village in Greece where her grandmother had been killed by the Communists.

In the middle of one hymn, Costa yelled,”A car’s coming!” We stayed put, singing, figuring that any car could wait for the Father, Son, and Holy Ghost.  That’s the risk you take driving the one road through the Mourgana mountains; sheep or saints could stop you at any turn.  I was flushed with the thrill of power.  Lia may be small, poor, and remote, but when we got together to make a joyful noise unto the Agia Triada, we stopped traffic.

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If either politics, Ireland, or the Victorian era interest you, I offer you my dear Anthony Trollope’s Phineas Finn: The Irish Member, where you will read Violet Effingham’s assessment:

“I hate a stupid man who can’t talk to me; and I hate a clever man who talks me down. I don’t like a man who is too lazy to make any effort to shine; but I particularly dislike the man who is always striving for effect.

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Another new author (to me) is Mark Helprin, a storyteller par excellence. I can’t wholeheartedly embrace Helprin’s writing; I certainly appreciate and enjoy it. I plan to re-read A Soldier of the Great War  at least once again, which is ironic in light of this quote:  

Perhaps he was a fool, but he thought that if a work were truly great you would only have to read it once and you would be stolen from yourself, desperately moved, changed forever.

Music is the one thing that tells me time and time again that God exists and that He’ll take care.

In a great aria, purity and perfection of form are joined to the commanding frailty of a human soul, and when those elements are knit, an arresting battle follows.

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Finally, it is my goal to read through David McCullough’s oeuvre.  Tack on Barbara Tuchman’s books to that plan.  Those two are my favorite writers of popular history.  Forget about sentences; check out Tuchman’s phrases from The Guns of August

…the indifference of a mind so shallow as to be all surface…

…their relentless talent for the tactless…

…scatter generals like chaff…

…spending lives like bullets…

       

Betjeman and Toplady

This is an addendum to the post about altered hymns.  And an addendum to the post about WWII reading.

Last night I picked up Trains and Buttered Toast: Selected Radio Talks by the poet John Betjeman (pronounced Betchman).  Random flipping brought me to a talk about Augustus Toplady (how would you say his name?), the author of the hymn Rock of Ages. Betjeman’s words:

“One further fact about the hymn, before going on to its author: in my hymn books the last verse has been revised to start:

When I draw this fleeting breath,
When mine eyelids close in death…

Toplady’s words are far more vivid and less mellifluously Victorian: they are more characteristic of Quarles and the seventeenth-century poets Toplady loved:

When I draw this fleeting breath
When my eyestrings break in death…

I always sing that line myself, despite the rest of the congregation.”

The heat and intensity with which Toplady and John Wesley publicly quarrel is a bit of a shock.  Controversy in the church is nothing new.  One last quote from the article, an Augustus Toplady quote:

“The deathbed of a Christian is the antechamber of heaven, the very suburbs of the New Jerusalem.”

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I am fascinated, intrigued and just plain interested in John Betjeman, a man about whom C.S. Lewis (his tutor at Oxford) wrote “I wish I could get rid of the idle prig.”  Yet a book critic called him “one of the pleasantest minor writers in the world.”

Several of Betjeman’s books now populate my wish list, but there is one I plan to buy soon: Sweet Songs of Zion: Selected Radio Talks.  From the product description:

…these talks concerning hymns and hymn writers were Betjeman’s swan song as a broadcaster. ‘Hymns are the poems of the people’, Betjeman observed in his first talk, and went on to show how variously this insight has been borne out over generations. Rich in anecdote and packed with information, these timeless talks will appeal to fans of Betjeman and newcomers alike, and will inspire everyone who has a fondness for hymns, and delights in Betjeman’s unique voice.  
 

Not For Present Use Alone

Reading over last year’s Christmas letters (yep, I keep them and re-read them), I saw this quote.  It is especially good, I think, for homeschool moms to ponder.  The part about stones being “sacred because our hands have touched them” makes me think of the music books I prize because my mother wrote my name on the cover.  Having her handwriting on those books makes them precious to me. 

When we build, let us think that we build forever. 

Let it not be for present delight nor for present use alone.

Let it be such work as our descendants will thank us for; and let us think, as we lay stone on stone, that a time is to come when those stones will be held sacred because our hands have touched them, and that men will say, as they look upon the labor and wrought substance of them, “See! This our father did for us.”

~ John Ruskin

Unswerving Fidelity

~ from the archives – and especially for my friend Hope at Worthwhile Books ~

This morning I grabbed a book to read while I worked out on the elliptical machine.  The biggest requirement was that it would lay flat on the little stand.  A hardback would do better, especially one with a loose binding.  A quick check of the stacks of books waiting to be read made Shadows on the Rock by Willa Cather my choice.  It is set in Quebec in 1697.  The main characters so far are the widowed apothecary and his daughter.

Many of you know that I lost my mom suddenly when I was 10 years old.  I read this passage with tender emotion.  I’ve abridged it here and there.

After she began to feel sure that she would never be well enough to return to France, her chief care was to train her little daughter so that she would be able to carry on this life and this order after she was gone.

Madame Auclair never spoke of her approaching death, but would say something like this:

      “After a while, when I am too ill to help you, you will perhaps find it fatiguing to do all these things alone, over and over.  But in time you will come to love your duties, as I do.  You will see that your father’s whole happiness depends on order and regularity, and you will come to feel a pride in it.  Without order our lives would be disgusting.”

She would think fearfully of how much she was entrusting to that little head; something so precious, so intangible; a feeling about life that had come down to her through so many centuries and that she had brought with her across the ocean. The sense of “our way,” –that was what she longed to leave with her daughter.

The individuality, the character, of M.Auclair’s house, though it appeared to be made up of wood and cloth and glass and a little silver, was really made up of very fine moral qualities in two women: the mother’s unswerving fidelity to certain traditions, and the daughter’s loyalty to her mother’s wish.

Isn’t that wonderful?  The last paragraph is so lovely.  Have any of you read Willa Cather?  My Antonia is my favorite, but this is perhaps the fifth book of hers that I’ve read.

Regrettable

  
The high-school English teacher
will be fulfilling his responsibility
if he furnished the student a guided opportunity,
through the best writing in the past,
to come, in time,
to an understanding of the best writing of the present…

And if the student finds that this is not to his taste?
Well, that is regrettable.  Most regrettable.
His taste should not be consulted; it is being formed.

~ Flannery O’Connor in Mystery and Manners: Occasional Prose

Learning Purringly

Honestly?  I think my job-teaching myself and my children-is the cat’s meow. 

I love learning something new, connecting it to what I already know, asking more questions, reviewing new information, tossing it out for discussion.  It is a glorious cycle that doesn’t seem to have an end. 

The “aha!” moments are pure sizzle. 

We are studying the 20th century and I am simultaneously appalled at what little I knew and delighted to start figuring out the back story of the years of my life.  The flow of history and culture fascinates as never before. As I am reading about the collision between Eastern Orthodox, Roman Catholics and Muslims in Bosnia, Serbia, Croatia and the Yugo (= south) slavs, early in the 20th century, I receive an email with a photo, asking for prayer for a refugee Serbian family searching for a country where they can live and work in peace.  That puts a face on the long struggles in the Balkan Peninsula.

This morning I found a word which I’ve read several times before and realized I didn’t know the meaning of it.
Sartorial (of or relating to a tailor or tailored clothes) from sartorius (muscle that crosses the front of the thigh obliquely and helps one to sit like a tailor).  Curt and I had a fun little debate about how tailors sit.  Any guesses?

Here is the context of the word sartorial, from the essay Why I am Hopeful by Andy Crouch, written about the present economic afflictions.

I am not hopeful because I think we are well prepared for what is ahead of us.  We are not.

We are a terrifyingly unserious people, our heads buzzing with trivia and noise.  This is more true, if anything, of American Christians than the rest of our country [world?].  The stark contrast between what I experience among Christians anywhere else in the world–and not just the “Third World,” because Canada and Germany and Britain and Singapore come to mind as quickly as Uganda and India–and American Christians is astonishing.  We are preoccupied with fads intellectual, theological, technological, and sartorial.  Vanishingly few of us have any serious discipline of silence, solitude, study, and fasting.  We have, in the short run, very little to offer our culture, because we live in the short run.      

Any learning sizzles in your life lately?

Here’s a mug in my sister-in-law’s collection in Maine.

 

Rejoice!

Rejoice, the Lord is King!  Your Lord and King adore;
Mortals give thanks and sing, and triumph evermore;
Life up your heart, life up your voice,
Rejoice, again I say, Rejoice!

~ Charles Wesley

I love this next quote by the mysterious Tristan Gylberd.  The real drama of everyday banalities.  The affairs of ordinary people.  It’s time – isn’t it? – to focus on our daily work, our personal relationships, doing all to the glory of God.

Politics is important.
But it is not all-important.

That is not just a modern phenomenon.
It has always been a fact of life.

Many who live and die by the electoral sword will certainly be shocked to discover that most of the grand-glorious headline-making events in the political realm today will go down in the annals of time as mere backdrops to the real drama of everyday banalities.

But it is so.

As much emphasis as is placed on campaigns, primaries, caucuses, conventions, elections, statutes, administrations, surveys, polls, trends, and policies these days, most of us know full well that the import of fellow workers, next door neighbors, close friends, and family members is actually far greater. 

Despite all the hype, hoopla, and hysteria of sensational turns-of-events, the affairs of ordinary people who tend their gardens and raise their children and perfect their trades and mind their businesses are, in the end, more important.

Just like they always have been.

Just like they always will be.

~ Tristan Gylberd, written some time before 1999, quoted in Lost Causes

Something Must Be Done

Thank God every morning,
when you get up,
that you have something to do that day
which must be done…

Work will breed in you temperance and self-control,
diligence and strength of will,
cheerfulness and content,
and a hundred virtues
which the idle never know.

~ Charles Kingsley

*photo taken from my kitchen window this morning

Idleness, laziness, sloth…
call it what you will,
it is one of my besetting sins.
Like a malignant tumor,
laziness grows tendrils deep within me.
I can sit here and write about it,
and not see the dirty floor around me.

Does this quote strike you as inspiring or judgmental?

Beauty Displayed in Death

Looking outside, I see thousands of dying leaves;
 my hope is that when I grow old and start to wither away,
 my life will reflect some small portion
 of the beauty
displayed in the death all around us…

…and until then
to live with the hope of resurrection
in that eternal spring
when I go to be with God.

~  our son Carson
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