Simple Pleasures in the Bleak Mid-Winter

~  The stark beauty of a monochromatic landscape
Gray on white.
It is austere, no doubt,
but awesome in its austerity.

~ Camisoles: the cold girl’s bosom buddy

~ Thick knit socks

~ Modulating up one half-step on the last verse of a hymn.

~  Sustaining words (from my husband’s mouth/pen/keyboard)

~  Non-complicated tax return
(this is one chore I truly enjoy.)

~  Accessible audio books. 
Hope has a great resource list.

~  New Costco throw rugs on a cold tile floor.

~  Baby’s breath (why can’t it stay sweet like this forever?)

~ Wood stove crankin’

~ Ultrasonic humidifier

~ Chicken cashew stir-fry
(onions, mushrooms, celery, bell pepper,
bean sprouts, broccoli, shredded cabbage,
bite-size chicken and generous amount of cashews.
Fry in small dollop of oil.
Add soy/tamari/Bragg’s.
Serve over rice.) 

What simple pleasure do you enjoy?

Relentless Tedium

Read on Wednesday, from All God’s Children and Blue Suede Shoes

Industrialized workers discovered “a new capacity for boredom.” 
Factories introduced an uncommon level of tedium to the lives of the workers.

Read this morning from The Second World War in Color:

As Soviet territory was consumed by German armour the death squads followed in their wake, beginning a regime of terror that would last for three years and bring brutality and death to countless millions.  [countless millions…a disturbing phrase]  Eventually, the machine-gunning by the execution squads became so routinely boring and exhausting for the perpetrators that they resorted to throwing their victims into their mass graves alive.  In fact, the relentless tedium of shootings was one of the reasons why death by gas became the preferred method of the Final Solution when it emerged during 1941.

Lord, have mercy. Christ, have mercy.

This is a heavy WWII study we are in.  The statistics are so gruesome that the mind gets numb to the numbers.  We have begun watching Band of Brothers.  Lt. Dick Winters is a bright light is such a dark story.

This afternoon we’re going to the theater (! – last theater movie was Prince Caspian) to watch Valkyrie, the story of a failed plot to kill Hitler.  The word Valkyrie fascinates me.  It means one of the handmaidens of Odin who choses heroes to be slain in battle and conducts them to Valhalla.  But when I look at the word I see: Valkyrie.  And Kyrie = Lord, have mercy.  That’s a word study for the future.

I need a counterbalance to this heaviness.  I just finished listening to The Last Chronicle of Barset by Anthony Trollope.  I’m thinking it might be time for P.G. Wodehouse.   

It’s Diverting, It’s New, It’s Community

Diversion

Modern popular culture is not just the latest in a series of diversions.  It is rather a culture of diversion.

I had an astonishing glimpse of a quieted (un-diverted) heart this week.  An older gentleman brought some tax information to my house.  He usually brings his wife with him, but this time he was alone.  It was going to take  30-45 minutes to complete the year-end work.  I offered him some magazines which he declined.  He sat at my table, content, doing nothing for that length of time.  He. just. sat. there.  He was happy.  It was amazing. 

The realization of how I would chafe at not having a book with me was a revelation of my own restlessness.  

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Novelty

The quest for novelty is not simply a search for new distractions; it involves the notion that a new thing will be better than the old one.

The love of novelty is manifest at the singing of the National Anthem at ballgames.  Artists are forever trying to give the music a tweak, either in rhythm, note-bending, chord structure or style.  We see the same thing with Christmas carols. Sometimes a new approach is fresh and refreshing; many times it is wearisome and freakish.

Curt and I will never forget a faculty music recital we attended.  The saxophone player, gifted with skill and brilliance, wooed us during the first half with ballads, smooth riffs, gorgeous tones, melting tunes.  The second half he introduced his experimental music which bordered on the obscene.  Unnatural hand positions, blowing through the instrument without making any sound alternated with playing the instrument without breathing into it–nihilistic nonsense.  It was novelty on steroids.                                                                                                                                        

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Community, or “the membership”

As industrialized populations became more and more mobile, the ties to family and community became weaker and weaker.  The sense that every individual person had a place of belonging within a family or the society of a community was soon lost.

Is the hunger for community hard-wired into our genetic makeup?  Immediately after this sentence, Myers says that many people voluntarily give up community and want to lose themselves in a crowd.  I have single friends who live in community in our rural part of the world; they are often advised to move to the city, where the possibility of meeting a potential life partner is greater.  Is that good or bad advice?

Is it harder or easier to establish community in a urban or rural setting? Does that matter? 

Membership and Sudoku

I have been loving the discussion and good fun, while dipping my oar in over at The Hannah Coulter Book Club.

The current entry at the HC Book Club is about membership.  Some people are put off by that term and prefer community.  How does “membership” work in modern life?  Thoughts have been careening around in my head as I’ve worked this afternoon.   

Now it is evening; I’m a bit lost since I finished my Christmas Sudoku book last night.  I love, love, love to puzzle out a difficult Sudoku before I sleep. 

The key, I found, to finishing difficult puzzles is to put the numbers together in a “community.”  When I first played Sudoku, I would try to find all the twos until I could go no further.  Looking for groups of numbers changed my approach.  For example, if you have a box (or row…or column) with four numbers in it, figure out the five numbers missing.  Say: 1,3,4,6,9.  Looking for that combination of numbers in every cell gets better results in a shorter time that looking for single ones, single threes, single fours, single sixes and single nines. 

There’s a lesson lurking underneath the surface.

When we are alone it is harder to find each other, harder to see where we fit in. 

Or perhaps it is just time to turn off the light and go to sleep!

Pneumonia

Our baby Noah has pneumonia.  Noah is three weeks old today.

We had an excellent visit with Carson and Taryn and Noah which culminated in worship Sunday morning and lunch at The Cedars, my favorite Seattle restaurant (Indian/Mediterranean food).  As the day progressed Noah’s breathing became more labored.  After x-rays and blood tests, he was diagnosed with a mild case of pneumonia and admitted to the hospital for a few days. 

We didn’t know as we listened to a sermon on I Peter 1:3-9 that God was preparing us for a trial.  But what better words to have ringing in your ears in a moment of crisis than:

In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials.

Please pray for Noah’s healing and for Carson’s strength and leadership and especially, my dear friends, — especially for Taryn.  It is so hard for new moms when their baby suffers.

From the Lutheran Book of Prayer (I’ve prayed this prayer several times in the past years.  I especially appreciate the second section.):

For a Member of the Family in Danger

O God, our ever present Help in trouble,
we beseech Thee to be with us in this hour of danger and distress.
Keep us calm, confident, trustful.
Thou art with us.
See us through this trying hour.
Let us not doubt that Thou canst help to the uttermost.
O Lord, we put all our trust in Thee.

Thy will be done, O God.
Let it be a gracious will and grant us grace to believe that all is well for time and eternity.
Today we look through a glass, darkly, but there is no darkness around Thy throne.
Even in these anxious moments we praise Thee, because we put all our trust in Thee.

O Lord, uphold us.
Do not forsake us.
Look upon us in mercy and forgive us our sins.

Strengthen our faith.
Give us courage.
Keep us calm and composed.
Bring peace to our souls.
Protect our loved one and, above all, preserve us all in Thy grace
now and forevermore, for the sake of our Redeemer,
Christ Jesus, our Lord.

Amen.

**UPDATE** After an uneventful day, Noah and his parents are planning on one more night in the hospital.  Things look good and, Lord willing, they will come home tomorrow.  Thank you, thank you, thank you for your prayers.

Prudence, Space and Diversity

Well, folks, I’m going to wuss out on you.  My schedule doesn’t allow me much time to ponder and interact with this week’s reading for Cindy’s book club chapters 2-3 discussion. In lieu of deep thoughts, I give you snippets.

Culture has very much to do with the human spirit.  What we find beautiful or entertaining or moving is rooted in our spiritual life. 
(This quote is going in my journal.  The implications are profound.)

Many of the decisions we make about our involvement in popular culture are not really questions about good and evil.  When I decide not to read a certain book, I am not necessarily saying that to read it would be a sin. It is much more likely that I believe it to be imprudent to take the time to read that book at this time in my life. 
(“But is it wise?” is a question I need to plow deep into my thoughts.)

In observing the Sabbath, man was culturally structuring time in accordance with a holy pattern.  This was part of his cultural commission, along with the task of being an architect in space by tending the Garden.   Space and time were thus consecrated by man’s original culture. 
(I’m used to thinking about how I spend my time as a wisdom issue; the wisdom involved in structuring my space is a new twist.  Hmmm.)


It is interesting to note that Scripture records an amazing amount of cultural activity in the line of Cain.
(Mentioned in Cain’s line: urban life, nomadic life, music and foundry. My thoughts spread like tendrils contemplating the ramifications.)  

The experience of human culture in all its diversity is the way we enjoy being human. It is being human, not being saved–it is the image of God in us, not regeneration–that establishes the capacity to recognize the distinctions between the beautiful and the ugly, between order and chaos, between the creative and the stultifying. 
(Does this explain why Christian stuff can be so cheesy and outclassed by the creativity of non-Christians? And how does this quote mesh with the first quote?  I like to think that I love diversity; I like diversity from a distance, for sure, diversity in a controlled setting.)

Twiceborn

An offering from my husband, Curt, the occasional poet.

Twiceborn…

 

 

                                                Conception’s seed                  

                                                            Adam’s son

                                                Womb’s darkness                               

                                                            Sin’s tomb

                                                Unconscious growth                          

                                                            Blind existence

                                                Sleepful swimming                            

                                                            Dead-man walking

                                                Nine-month gestation                        

                                                            Thirty-year enslavement

                                                Stressed contractions                         

                                                            Offensive preaching

                                                Pushed and squeezed                         

                                                            Drawn and dragged

                                                Useless resistance                               

                                                            Excuses exhausted

                                                Optionless choice                               

                                                            Broken will

                                                Distant voices                                    

                                                            Divine call

                                                Squinting brightness                          

                                                            Glorious light

                                                Crying gasp                                        

                                                            Holy Breath

                                                Severed cord                                      

                                                            Bondage broken

                                                Washed and wrapped                        

                                                            Baptized and robed

                                                Clean and safe                                               

                                                            Forgiven and kept

                                                Daddy’s arm-cradle                           

                                                            Father’s mercy

                                                Mommy’s milk                                   

                                                            Mother Church

                                                Family likeness                                   

                                                            Kingdom membership

                                                A child is born                                               

                                                            A son is reborn

 

…of water and the Spirit


25 Random Things About Me

Speaking of insomnia…this post just wrote itself last night.  Updated 6-21-11

1. I really enjoy reading random things about my friends. The more random, the more enjoyable. I still do!

2. I chafe at the punctuation rule requiring end marks to be inside the closing quote WHEN the quote is just a section of the sentence. Sometimes I even break the rule, ON PURPOSE.

3. I am weaning myself of a bizarre comfort food: non-instant powdered milk eaten with a spoon. When I was a child we had piles of government surplus boxes around and one day I was hungry. It helped me give it up when I learned that it contains oxidized cholesterol. Never mind that it sticks in your teeth and is plain gross from any spectator’s POV.  This is a closed chapter in my life.

4. I have an athletic past: I played goalie on a field hockey team in the fifth and sixth grades. I communicated this TBOI (tasty bit of information) to my husband and his folks on New Year’s Day. My mother-in-law referred to me as a musician, not an athlete. “Hey!” I protested, “I played field hockey.” (Besides, one (musician) does not preclude the other (athlete).) My mother-in-law had never *heard* of field hockey. When the USC infomercial played during the Rose Bowl, there was a shot of a field hockey team. Vindication, Baby!

5. I had one date (but played music for a year) with a man who composed many of the choruses in the Maranatha Praise Book. When my sons (10 and 12 year-old athletes at the time) discovered this they were Horrified! “Mom, if you had married this guy, we would be playing the piano instead of playing baseball/soccer!!” (One does not preclude the other.)

6. My husband and one daughter-in-law share an antipathy to FaceBook. He calls it FacePlant. He still does!

7. I hate when I *adore* a movie and my husband decidedly doesn’t. Vitus and 84, Charing Cross Road come to mind.  I persuaded him to enjoy Lark Rise to Candleford.

8. I must have a latent love of homogeneity because I am surprised (and a wee bit distressed) when someone with whom I consider myself 92% compatible, has an opposite reaction to a book I liked. I can be malleable, though. I’m usually the one who changes my opinion. Not always.

9. My favorite thing to do when the guys watch movies beyond my ken is to read the archives of a blog I recently discovered and like. Yep.

10. I am astonished at the level of passionate disagreement that can arise between my four-year old grandson and me. We both hold fast to our fierce opinions; neither gives an inch. Fast forward ten years and then what?  We agree not to discuss Spiderman and get along fine now.

11. I cannot foresee a day where I am comfortably confident in the usage of lay/lie, affect/effect, and that/which. Not to mention em dashes and en dashes. Making progress—in more ways than one—on the em dash. Nat, a young friend of mine, taught me that Alt + 0151 = em dash. Yay!

12. I laugh at what I call over-correction: when someone uses “and I” in the objective case. Ex: Hard times are headed down the road for you and I. It ought to be “you and me.” (See #2)

13. The idea of gardening is quite appealing to me. The idea. When it comes down to it, I would much rather read than weed.  Audio books make both possible.

14. I can avoid shopping better than anyone I know. (Exception: bookstores, office supply stores, Costco and Trader Joe’s–all of which are at least three hours away)

15. It is my goal to be at every niece and nephew’s wedding. I missed one because he eloped. He. Eloped. When is the last time you heard of someone eloping?

16. When we went to a church where most people didn’t drink alcohol, I used to construct cereal box fortresses in my shopping cart to hide the beer I was buying for my husband.

17. I have no fashion sense. I attract friends who like to “makeover” me. I don’t mind, but nothing ever really sticks.

18. When the men are huddled together talking theology and the women are discussing potty training, I’d rather be with the men.

19. A ClustrMap is on my blog because I adore the international dots. I have two semi-regular commenters from foreign countries for whom English is a second language.

20. I collect songs I want played or sung at my funeral. This is a vital part of who I am. #1 Funeral Song is For All the Saints. It’s still something I think about at least once a week.

21. I sing and sway in the car, even at stoplights. I sing in the bathroom, using my hairbrush as a microphone. I conduct the orchestra when I’m taking a walk, usually 4/4 time. I also read while I blow dry my hair.

22. My favorite thing to do with my oldest grandson is to lie (see #11 – I had to look it up) on the kitchen floor and sing made-up songs with gusto. Not so much anymore. My second favorite thing is to read him books. Favorite thing to do with a different grandson is to watch hunting videos, something I refused to do with my sons.

23. My fantasies: to have read all the excellent books on my shelf; to play the piano beyond “pretty good”; to run 5 kilometers; to have all my photos organized; to have someone do my hair every day; to let others talk…naturally; for self-control to be the default.

24. Competitiveness comes and goes. I can laugh at losing or I can be an intensely disappointed loser. The other option is just to beat the sucker I’m playing. Ayup.

25. Likewise, I alternate between agitation and resignation relative to order/disorder issues.

Can’t Sleep?

I think it is that hormonal time of life, but insomnia seems to be assaulting my friends.  Me too. 

I wake up sometime between 2:00 and 4:00 a.m. and–boing!–I’m wide awake!

My girlfriend Lisa awes me with her discipline.  She just trains herself to stay in bed and stay relaxed, rest assured that she is getting rest if not sleep

My friend Val starts praying through her lists.  She prays for her relatives, her co-workers, her friends at church, her neighbors until she drifts back into never-never land.  I don’t think she has ever gotten to the place where she prays through the phone book!

Another friend never has two bad nights in a row.  After one sleepless night, she takes Benadryl.  I guess you’d call that the Better Living Through Chemistry approach.

Here’s what works for me:  I get up, grab my book or The Book, go to the living room and read. I figure if I’m awake I might as well read.  I don’t take a blanket, don’t try to get cozy.  My main goal is get very cold.  Icy feet, icy fingers, chilled arms, droopy eyelids.  When I’m good and cold, I go back to my warm bed and slip under the down comforter.  It never fails. 

Since I’ve been walking with Leslie I have fewer middle-of-the-night rendezvouses. (I had to look up how to make a plural of rendezvous; pronounce it vooz. I’m not convinced this is correct. *See comments*)  

Do you have times you can’t sleep? 

What’s your scoop on snoozing through the night?