Love of Learning

There are some who wish to learn
for no other reason than
that they may be looked upon as learned,
which is ridiculous vanity. . .

Others desire to learn
that they may
morally instruct others;

that is love.

And, lastly, there are some
who wish to learn
that they may be
themselves edified;
and that is prudence.

~ St. Bernard of Clairvaux
c. 1145
trans. S. J. Eales

This quote is on the front page of the book I’m currently reading, The Civilization of the Middle Ages, by Norman F. Cantor.

How does this quote strike you? 

My answer would be “it all depends on the subject.”  There are some subjects which I barely learn enough to guide my student.  In fact, I just don’t go there.  Every road must have some potholes, and every one of my students has gaps in their knowledge and understanding which will need to be filled in the future.  We do minimums, we all know that, we leave it on the table and walk on by. 

In other areas I have a hunger, a propelling thirst.  I want to understand, I  need to see the connections; I know I’m ignorant (without knowledge) but I want more than the rudiments. I desire discernment, analysis, and synthesis. 

Childhood Memories

One of my favorite childhood shots of my husband, on his birthday

I have two short quotes for you today.  One is from Amy’s Humble Musings

“Have you ever seen an old, candid snapshot of kids? The couch is all
ratty. There are brown-paneled walls in the background. The table is
covered in junk. But they’re all smiling and some of them are missing
teeth. The glimmers in their eyes blind them to the green shag carpet.
Maybe you’ve seen some of those pictures too. Good times. That’s the
stuff of life.”

The other is from Life is So Good by George Dawson and Richard Glaubman. Highlights are mine.

“Junior, what do you remember about growing up in this family?  What do you remember about your father?”

“Oh, we was always close.  He took me fishing.”

“Tell me about that.”

“Well, Daddy would wake me about four in the morning.  It was still dark then, but we would go down to the lake.  It was about two miles away; but a lot of times we would walk there.  We always caught fish too.  When he wasn’t off to work he took me everywhere, just the two of us.:”

Richard said, “That sounds nice, but there were a lot of children in your family.”

“That’s right,” Junior said.  “Thing is that Darrell, my only brother, wasn’t born till several years after me.  The girls would do things with my mother and I went with my father.  That’s how things were done then.  For me and my brother and sisters, our childhood was great.  Richard, if I could, I would give you the experience of my childhood as a gift.  It was that wonderful for me.”

“But from what I have heard, your family was very poor.  You would definitely have been below the poverty level.”

“You’re right about that.  Most of my childhood, Daddy had to work two jobs so we could get by. Still, if the Good Humor man came by after a payday, we would all of us get a nickel to get an ice cream.  I still remember the excitement with that.  We had all we needed and then some.  There was no one that told us we were poor and I guess we just didn’t know better.”



Pondering Privileges and Benefits

We want to avoid suffering, death, sin, ashes.  But we live in a world crushed and broken and torn, a world God Himself visited to redeem.  We received his poured-out life, and being allowed the high privilege of suffering with Him, may then pour ourselves out for others. 
    ~ Elisabeth Elliott

I attended a funeral this week and was reminded once again of the benefits of death–to be absent from the body is to be present with the Lord.  To be sure, death remains our enemy until the final resurrection. Then death will gasp its last breath.  Amen!  But remember this also: there is no resurrection without death.  And there is the rub.  Everyone wants to go to heaven, but no one wants to die.  Jesus instructs his disciples: in order to regularly live you must regularly die.  He who gives up his life finds it.  But he who grasps his life loses it.  This is the deep weird.  But it’s a mystery we are always confronted with.  Are we willing to die so we might live?    
  ~ Magister Pater



Worldview

Now, whenever the subject of worldview comes up,
we moderns think of philosophy.
And that is really too bad.
We think of intellectual niggling.
We think of theological lint-picking.
We think of the brief and blinding oblivion
of ivory tower speculation,
of thickly obscure tomes and
of inscrutuable logical complexities.

In fact, a worldview is as practical
as garden arbors,
public manners,
whistling at work,
dinnertime rituals
and architectural angels.

It is less metaphysical than understanding
marginal market buying at the stock exchange
or legislative initiatives in congress.
It is less esoteric than typing a chapter
for this book into a laptop computer
or sending an instant text message
across the continent with a mobile phone.
It is instead, as down to earth as
inculcating a culture-wide appetite
for beauty, truth and goodness.

~ George Grant in Omnibus II

Old English Poetry

       The Voyage of Life

Now is it most like     as if on ocean
Across cold water     we sail in our keels,
Over the wide sea     in our ocean-steeds,
Faring on in our flood-wood.     Fearful the stream,
The tumult of waters,     whereon we toss
In this feeble world.     Fierce are the surges
On the ocean-lanes.     Hard was our life
Before we made harbor     over the foaming seas.
Then help was vouchsafed     when God’s Spirit-Son
Guided us to the harbor of salvation     and granted us grace
That we may understand     over the ship’s side
Where to moor our sea-steeds,     our ocean-stallions,
Fast at anchor.    Let us fix our hope
Upon that haven     which the Lord of heaven,
In holiness on high,     has opened by His Ascension.
                             
                                                ~    Cynewulf

Isn’t that bit of ninth century poetry lovely?

It’s from An Anthology of Old English Poetry translated by Charles W. Kennedy. 
Used copies begin at $0.60 with $3.49 shipping and handling.  Such a deal.

Framley Parsonage

~ Have you ever made a foolish financial transaction and hid it from your spouse?
~ Have you loved your son, but disliked his choice of wife?
~ If you loved a man, but knew that his mother didn’t like you, what would you say to a marriage proposal?
~ Do you sometimes yearn to be an accepted member of the inner circle?
~ Should a pastor have nice things?
~ Has a formerly close friendship changed because your friend was promoted and you couldn’t deal with the differences in your situations?

Anthony Trollope’s Framley Parsonage, the fourth book in the Barsetshire novels, leaves the theme of class divisions and explores the complete orbit of ambition.

Tolstoy’s Anna Karenina takes the reader through every stage of an affair, from the stolen glances across the room to the clandestine meetings to the pleasure of consumation.   Tolstoy accurately narrates the zest and tingly shivers that accompany illicit love. Then he carries the story to its logical conclusion; the eventual boredom of the relationship, estrangement from family, the problem of the children, the loss of respectability, the loneliness of self-imposed banishment and despair that ends in tragedy.  

I thought of Anna K as I read Framley Parsonage.  Mark Robarts is a nice guy: a young, well-established vicar with a growing family and a generous patroness.  He is invited to a party of the upper crust, unscrupulous high rollers, and also asked to preach a sermon at their church.  The invitation to preach legitimizes whatever questions may be raised by the company he would keep.  Robarts is naive; he is manipulated; he is outrageously foolish. 

It is no doubt very wrong to long after a naughty thing. But nevertheless we all do so.  One may say that hankering after naughty things is the very essence of the evil  into which we have been precipitated by Adam’s fall. When we confess that we are all sinners, we confess that we all long after naughty things. … Clergymen are subject to the same passions as other men; and, as far as I can see, give way to them, in one line or another, almost as frequently. Every clergyman should, by canonical rule, feel a personal disinclination to a bishopric; but yet we do not believe that such personal disinclination is generally very strong. (p.66)

Mark thought he could touch pitch and not be defiled.  After he is entrapped, he muddles around, scrambling to cover and hide his situation. When his courage builds to the point of facing his wife, confessing his foibles, and enduring public embarrassment, we admire and enjoy this country vicar and adore his wife Fanny.

Is not that sharing of the mind’s burdens one of the chief purposes for which man wants a wife? For there is no folly so great as keeping one’s sorrows hidden. And this wife cheerfully, gladly, thankfully took her share. To endure with her lord all her lord’s troubles was easy to her; it was the work to which she had pledged herself.  But to have thought that her lord had troubles not communicated to her; – that would have been to her the one thing not to be bourne.  (p.400)

Trollope always writes with humor, clarity, and a supreme understanding of human nature. His tone is warm, not preachy; he is funny! Yet in his humor, he is serious.  He likes women who are “ready-witted, prompt in action, and gifted with a certain fire” not “missish, and spoony, and sentimental”.  He unveils many forms of pride: the refusal of poor Mr. Crawley to accept needed help; the idolatrous pride of mothers in their children; the haughty statue of a girl whose only desire is to sit and be admired; the difficulty of a stubborn aristocratic mother to admit her judgment was wrong. 

The entertaining subplots add interest without distracting from the main storyline.  The wealthy heiress, Miss Dunstable, is adroit at batting off marriage proposals with her “I am much obliged to you”s until she receives a most unusual love letter from a hero of a previous book.  Young Lucy Robarts is a genius in dealing with a potential mother-in-law problem.  If you’d like to know her solution, email me and I’ll tell you without spoiling it for the others.  TBOI (tasty bit of information): Mr. Spurgeon makes a brief entrance.

It is only mid-February, but I suspect that this book will be my favorite 2007 read.  Elizabeth Gaskell, a contemporary of Trollope, wrote, “I wish Mr. Trollope would go on writing Framley Parsonage for ever.”
 

Tarradiddle

Wah Wah!  I’ve got a nasty head cold and a wicked sore throat.  My son’s school is on autopilot and I’m tucked into the recliner sucking Vitamin C drops, sipping water, solving Sudokus and savoring Anthony Trollope.  But the day cannot be listed among the liabilities if we have learned a new word, can it?  Tarradiddle ranks up there with canoodling and tchah!  Here is the context:

O Lady Lufton!  Lady Lufton! did it not occur to you, when you wrote those last words, intending that they should have so strong an affect on the mind of your correspondent, that you were telling a — tarradiddle?

[…]

In these days we are becoming very strict about truth with our children: terribly strict occasionally, when we consider the natural weakness of the moral courage at the ages of ten, twelve, and fourteen.  But I do not know that we are at all increasing the measure of strictness with which we, grown-up people, regulate our own truth and falsehood.  Heaven forbid that I should be thought to advocate falsehood in children; but an untruth is more pardonable in them than in their parents.  Lady Lufton’s tarradiddle was of a nature that is usually considered excusable — at least with grown people; but, nevertheless, she would have been nearer to perfection could she have confined herself to the truth.    ~ Anthony Trollope in Framley Parsonage

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I read two short stories aloud to my husband and son this weekend: The Hurt Man and Don’t Send a Boy to Do a Man’s Work.   After hearing The Hurt Man my husband exclaimed, “That’s some of the best writing I’ve ever heard.” I want to get up in the middle of the night and read more.  I want to grab people, stop them in their tracks and make them listen.  I want to buy 50 copies and pass them out left and right.   I am smitten.

Here are a few phrases which have captured me:

At the age of five Mat was beginning to prepare himself to help in educating his grandson, though he did not know it.

The shape of his hand in printed on the flesh of my thigh as vividly as a birthmark.  This man who was my grandfather is present in me, as I felt always his father to be present in him.

At those times she lived in his love as in a spacious house.

Pride

Pride is a denial of God,
an invention of the devil,
contempt for men.

It is the mother of condemnation,
the offspring of praise,
a sign of barrenness.

It is a flight from God’s help,
the harbinger of madness,
the author of downfall.

It is the cause of diabolical possession,
the source of anger,
the gateway of hypocrisy.

It is the fortress of demons,
the custodian of sins,
the source of hardheartedness.

It is the denial of compassion,
a bitter pharisee,
a cruel judge.

It is the foe of God.

It is the root of blasphemy.

John Climacus as quoted in The Cloister Walk by Kathleen Norris

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This devastating quote stopped me, stunned me. Each time I read it a different phrase sticks like Velcro to my soul. 

    Gateway of hypocrisy     
Custodian of sins

I am reading The Cloister Walk slowly and intermittently.   Norris’s journal of extended visits to a Benedictine monastery dovetail  beautifully with our study of medieval  life and literature; her meditations bring that far distant time of monks and tonsures closer to the now. The book is structured around the liturgical year, an idea which is so foreign to my low church upbringing. 

Norris is very L’English to me: at times I appreciate her style, the poetry in her soul which illumines the prose, more than the substance of her words.  For example, I think it very strange that a married woman would spend months apart from her husband in a monastery.  Maybe there were extenuating circumstances which she chose not to include in her book.  Undoubtedly our theology would zig zag were we to line it up side by side.  Nevertheless gems of insight, piercing perception, pop off the page as I continue reading.     


Which one of these phrases grabs you today?

[Added: More about John Climacus and excerpts on the memory of insults, hypocrisy and lies, and love as light, fire and flame.]

Aidan


As I read through Bede’s Ecclesiastical History of the English People I fell in love with a man named Aidan (died A.D. 651). What is it with these A guys?  Athanasius, Ambrose, Augustine, Aidan…  There are only two pages on his life (p.150-151 in Penguin Classics); but that is enough to win you to the winsome man who left the island of Iona to live in  Lindisfarne.  His life is marked by self-discipline and discretion.

Aiden was the most popular boy’s name in 2006.  I’ve decided that everytime I know a family who names their son Aiden I will include a photocopy of these two pages with a card of congratulations.  It is a lovely legacy.

Oh! OH! Wouldn’t Seamus [usually pronounced SHAY mus] and Aidan be lovely names for twin boys? 

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Whether in town or country, he always travelled on foot unles compelled by necessity to ride;
and whatever people he met on his walks, whether high or low, he stopped and spoke to them. (p.150)

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It is said that when King Oswald originally asked the Irish to send a bishop to teach the Faith of Christ to himself and his people, they sent him another man of a more austere disposition.  After some time, meeting with no success in his preaching to the English, who refused to listen to him, he returned home and reported to his superiors that he had been unable to achieve anything by teaching to the nation to whom they had sent him, because they were an ungovernable people of an obstinate and barbarous temperament.

The Irish fathers therefore held a great conference to decide on the wisest course of action; for while they regretted that the preacher whom they had sent had not been acceptable to the English, they still wished to meet their desire for salvation. 

Then Aidan, who was present at the conference, said to the priest whose efforts had been unsuccessful: ‘Brother, it seems to me that you were too severe on your ignorant hearers. You should have followed the practice of the Apostles, and begun by giving them the milk of simpler teaching, and gradually nourished them with the word of God until they were capable of greater perfection and able to follow the loftier precepts of Christ.’

At this the faces and eyes of all who were at the conference were turned towards him; and they paid close attention to all he said, and realized that here was a fit person to be made bishop and sent to instruct the ignorant and unbelieving, since he was particularly endowed with the grace of discretion, the mother of virtues.  They therefore consecrated him bishop, and sent him to preach.  Time was to show that Aidan was remarkable not only for discretion, but for the other virtues as well.  (p.151)