My day as a Penn State Fan

          

Last Saturday we went to a Penn State football game.  I donned a borrowed sweatshirt and slipped into the life of a Penn State fan.  I learned the liturgy of PSU football, tutored by my beloved niece Anne.  First off, Joe Paterno is “Joepa”.  One of the chants is “JoePa” with the other side responding “Terno”. There is an abiding affection for this man that permeates everything within a 100 mile radius. 

 

 

 

 

This wall has a quote: “They ask me what I’d like to be written about me when I’m gone. I hope they write I made Penn State a better place, not just that I was a good football coach.”

 The stadium holds 100,000 + people.  By the time the band comes onto the field, the stadium is packed with people.  The drum major wuns out and does a flip on the field.  He jumps high enough to make the flip without the plumes on his hat touching the ground.  The tradition is that if he makes the flip without muffing it, PSU will win the game.

The players do not have their names on the backs of their jerseys to emphasize that they play as a team.  My brother’s extended family is very closely connected to PSU; consequently we had great seats on the 45 yd line, 15 rows up.  Sometimes I look straight ahead at the line of scrimmage.

 

 

 

 My brother’s family are friends with two of the players.  They’ve had them down to the farm, fed them, and encouraged them.  It was fun to cheer for specific players and to follow them.  The final score was PSU 33 Northwestern 7.  Hooray!! 

Simply Books

I had a delightful experience in the Minneapolis/St. Paul airport.  I discovered a lovely bookstore: tasteful displays, no magazines, a few deep chairs, and, best of all, book quotes posted all around the store.  After some pleasant, light  book talk with the employee, I took out my journal, settled into the deep chair and started copying quotes.  Here are just a few:

A book is like a garden carried in a pocket.    Chinese Proverb

What is reading but quiet conversation.     Walter Savage Landor

Literature is the memory of humanity.     Isaac Bashevis Singer

What I like in a good author is not what he says, but what he whispers.     Logan Pearsall Smith

Reading is to the mind what exercise is to the body.      Joseph Addison

‘Tis the good reader that makes the good book.     Ralph Waldo Emerson

Knowledge comes, but wisdom lingers.              Tennyson

I bought a book:  Good Poems for Hard Times edited by Garrison Keillor.  Several are already flagged for repeat readings. 

Coming as soon as I can figure how to upload pictures here in PA: My day as a Penn State football fan.  With, WITH, my friend, shots of the great coach Joe Paterno.  He is affectionately called JoePa by the fans here.

Yesterday we spent a lovely, sunny day going to Johnstown and seeing the two flood museums.  With David McCullough’s The Johnstown Flood fresh in my mind, it was absorbing, but sobering.  My brother and I have already spent several nights up beyond midnight talking, talking, talking.  I am soaking up the girl time with his wife, three daughters and granddaughter.  It’s so different from my male dominated environment at home, such a lovely change! 

A Prayer on One’s Birthday

        It’s My Birthday Today!

One thing about me:  it’s very hard to be brief when I’m excited.  And excited I am!  I’m leaving on a jet plane, taking a long overdue trip to see my oldest brother and his family in Pennsylvania.  This is David, who taught at my high school while I was a student there.  David the teacher, David the pastor, David the dairy farmer, David…you see, I digress. 

I’m excited because the phone keeps ringing with birthday greetings and well wishes. 

I’m excited because I won a beautiful pair of socks from Donna‘s birthday drawing yesterday.  Woohoo!  And when do I win anything?  Never! Except on my birthday!  Thank you Donna.  I love soaking up some of your afterglow.  And I’m gonna love those socks.  Bring on the winter, man, I’ll be ready! 

Take a breath…try to settle. down. 

I wanted to post this prayer, On One’s Birthday, today from a Lutheran Prayer Book I picked up at a book sale.  Then I have to finish the salsa, pack up, return books to the library, hug and kiss my men, and take off.  Thank you for the many ways you, dear readers, have enriched my life. 


Gracious Lord, Thou hast brought me to the threshold of another year.  The year has been rich in goodness and blessings coming from Thy bountiful hand of love.  Thou didst not turn from me but daily hast protected me and safely seen me through the many trials and temptations of life.  I am not worthy of all this goodness and grace.  Often I have sinned against Thee and offended Thee with my transgressions.  Forgive me, Lord, for Jesus’ sake.  Let me start life anew, led by Thee throughout this coming year.


O Lord, graciously keep me in Thy grace.  Give me the strength to dedicate myself, my entire life, to Thee. Let my greatest joy be found in Thy Word and in doing Thy will.



Simple Pleasures in September


~ A cozy, comfortable sweater and a mug of steaming PG Tips

~ Fresh salsa

~ Reading a book for pleasure and discovering it ties in perfectly with teaching

~ Spooning with my husband the ten minutes between awakening and arising

~ The spicy, cinnamonny/chocolately smell of zucchini bread baking

~ Pesto made, hallelujah!, before the first frost nipped the basil

~ Anticipating a trip back east to see my oldest brother and his beautiful family

~ Enjoying the music of Phil Coulter with my son

~ The laughing eyes, upward-turned face of my grandson when I read to him with various voices.

~ Finding public domain photos.  Thanks, P D Photo


Flirtin’ in Church

I felt his gaze before I saw it.  My eyes wandered toward him and our eyes locked.  He held my gaze, as if by command, and then a slow, demi-smile started across his face.  I turned away and concentrated on playing the piano. 

The next time I looked over at him, he had shifted to get a clearer view.  Now it was a full frontal stare.  My cheeks warmed and I allowed a small smile to work its way onto my face.   He sensed the control he had over this situation. His eyes started dancing; he grinned straightforwardly and unabashedly. 

My propriety weakened; I winked at him. 

He moved again and the top of the chair framed his sparkling eyes.  He shifted so I could not see him.  Slowly, his face came into view between two chairs.  Distracted, I searched for my place in the music.  I took a deep breath and refocused on my duties. 

Those insistent eyes kept tempting me and finally I snuck another glance.  So far down the slippery slope of brazen behavior, I winked again.  His grandpa winked back at me.  My cheeks are hot.  Next song.



 

FHB

A quaint little family story, gleaned from my recent visit with my sister:

I grew up the youngest of seven children.  Guests were a part of every Sunday dinner and we probably averaged 15-20 people around the extended table.  At times our family lived hand to mouth, (or prayer to prayer) but my mom was a pro.fess.ion.al. at making enough food to fill everyone up.  However, occasionally it appeared that there might not be enough to go around.

When that happened, FHB was whispered and passed from kid to kid.  It was a code for “Family Hold Back”, an signal to take smaller portions or pass the bowl by to make sure the guests were served first.

As with many of our family stories, I can’t remember this; but I love the story!  I don’t know anything about Lorraine Russell’s book – just found it on Google images!

August Books, Part One

I make it a habit to read books that help me in my role as homemaker in August.  September is a sort of New Year with school starting back up, and August is my month to try to get the house deep-cleaned, or the month to tackle a time-consuming project.  So over the years I have read books about frugality, organization, cleaning, laundry, healthy eating, etc. in August.

My husband shakes his head back and forth and sighs.  You see, he is a doer.  He bounds out of bed in the morning (usually) and has “the list” in his head, written down at home and written down at work.  He excels at prioritization, is realistic about the time it takes to accomplish a task, and hasn’t an ounce of procrastination in his body.  To his logical train of thought: if the house is dirty, clean it!   Just do it!
 
Well, um, my philosophy is more along the lines of Read About It First, Think Deep Thoughts, Talk about Doing It, before actually doing it.  This works well with a major lifestyle change like deciding to homeschool, but is probably overkill for dusting under the bed.

Nevertheless, I find that well-written books rev up my engine and get me excited, even if it’s about a new improvement such as using a squeegee to wash my windows instead of an old diaper or the good old newpaper-and-vinegar method. It recalibrates my brain and gets me on the right path again. My batteries get charged and I’m motivated to start ticking away. 

This August, thanks to Dana, I’m reading Edith Schaeffer’s The Hidden Art of Homemaking, Creative Ideas for Enriching Everyday Life.  What a treasure chest of thoughts, ideas and inspirations!!  This book is so much more than cooking, cleaning and laundry. 

I’m encouraged to search for beauty in all aspects, every medium of my everyday life and find ways to bring that beauty to the surface. Reading through it reminds me of my SIL Kathie, who is always putting a vase of freshly cut flowers on her table or arranging food to be served in an aesthetically pleasing manner. 

I’m thinking about ways of implementing some of the ideas I’ve read about so far.  Do you get into a rut of “same-ol-same-ol” like I do?  Like any improvement there is a time of intense focus and concentration and then the dreadful “slippage” starts, and, before you know it, it’s August again!

How do you *cultivate* beauty in your life?

Coming Home

One of my high school girlfriends coined the word ro-tic (pronounced ROE-tick) for all those situations and settings that were so romantic, minus the man.  You know, a boat trip, a sunset, or a lovely walk in the woods – that would be perfect if a man who loved you was participating, if you were a couple instead of a single.

That’s the word that came to mind when I arrived home yesterday afternoon.  My husband, three sons and some friends are on our annual backpacking trip; thus, I came home to an empty house.  The white board (the command center of our home) had a message waiting for me – lyrics to a song – that let me know, um, that my absent husband is looking forward to seeing me soon.

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It’s good to be home.  Funny, both directions of this trip were home-comings.  The Chicago area will always be home to me, the repository of my childhood memories.  But the people, the places, even the most fixed of landmarks, change while you are gone and only part of it is the familiar place you remember. 

Home is this space where God has placed me. Home is the people I love, the jobs I’ve been given. It’s a good place to be.

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The summer I was 18 was a betwixt-and-between summer.  I felt dislocated and dangling.  I was estranged from my father and step-mother, not welcome at their house.  I had a place to go in the fall, but three blank months before me. I was in California without transportation nor the money to go to a sibling’s house in the Midwest. I worked at four or five different summer camps, traveled to play the piano in friends’ weddings and filled in wherever there was a need –  really, wherever I could stay.

One week I was at a friend’s cousin’s mom’s house (a stranger to me) and broke down in tears, lamenting my “homeless estate”.  I cannot remember this woman, her name or her appearance; but her words are burned into my brain. “You are in such a great spot, Carol,” she began.  “You have nothing to hold onto but the Lord. Look at me – I have a nice home, a good husband,  my children, etc.  These are gifts but they can also be temptations to place my hope and my security in, instead of trusting God. God is your home, God is your refuge.” 
 
Now that I’m home, I need to catch up on many things.  My next year of school is sketched out, but I need to work on the details, type up schedules, revisit Algebra II, make sure I have all the books I need. Soon. Only after I sit on the deck with my man and talk and talk and talk and listen and listen and listen.

“The perfect journey is circular – the joy of departure and the joy of return.”
                                                                         ~   Dino Basili

Yo, Mama! I Saw Yo-Yo Ma! (or a Glorious Evening)

What a gift!  I can’t articulate it all…but it was Wonderful!  The Ravinia Festival is such a lovely setting.  There is an open pavilion that seats 2,000-3,000 people. Tickets for the pavilion are $$$pendy and were sold out immediately. Surrounding the pavilion is a large park with abundant trees, paths, and speakers situated so all can hear.  Every square inch of ground (another 2000 people?) was filled with picnickers in lawn chairs, blankets, and lovely feasts.  There were many wine glasses and fancy hor d’oevres as well as buckets of fried chicken and the ubiquitous bottles of water.  The cicadas joined in the noise of the throng.

We arrived at 5:00, set up our little picnic and enjoyed my 2 year old grand-niece as we waited for the 7:00 concert.  In our lawn chairs we could not see any musicians but could hear them perfectly.  My BIL walked me to the rail around the pavilion where I could stand and get a glimpse of Mr. Ma performing.  The Chicago Symphony opened with “The Three-Cornered Hat” and we sat around enjoying it.  

Then such a bonus! Yo-Yo Ma played the Haydn Cello Concerto in C Major, a piece not on the original program.  The minute I heard the cello, I jumped up and made my way to the railing.  My family knew they wouldn’t see me for a while.  When I got to the rail, crowds were 5 people deep trying to see the maestro. I stood, waited, tilting my head this way and that, and as people moved on, inched closer to the front.  

Finally I could see him playing. He wore a white tuxedo coat with black slacks and a black tie.  The cello shined in the spotlights, the warm hues of the wood in great contrast to the sea of black and white surrounding it.  The music of Haydn flowed through Mr. Ma’s body so naturally; so much a part of him.  At the end of some phrases he almost propelled out of his seat with the flourish.  

I loved this: when the cello solo was silent for the orchestra playing, Yo-Yo played along with the orchestral cello part.  That man loves music so much that it seemed he couldn’t sit back and wait for the next solo part – he was involved with every part of the music.

Watching his bowstrokes was fabulous.  The bow sometimes very close to the instrument, very controlled.  At other times it was dramatic and anywhere within five feet of his cello. He played the difficult notes up by the bridge so skillfully and the overtones were … perfect.  The sound that came from that cello was so full, so rich, so complete.  Tears filled my eyes as the ache of the incomparable beauty washed over me.  

Thousands of people were perfectly still and listening with an unalloyed intensity. Some heads nodded with the music, others were perfectly still.  I loved seeing so many younger people in the audience.  It was a tingling sensation to participate with a culture that appreciates beautiful music.

With the last phrase the audience thundered applause and Mr. Ma was up on his feet giving the conductor a bear hug.  No polite handshaking and chin-dipping here.  There were hugs all around.  I loved that about Yo-Yo Ma. 

During the intermission most people left their posts at the pavilion railing.  I was rooted to the rail though, not wanting to miss the opportunity to be in the front when the concert resumed.  A woman my age was the only other person still hanging at the rail and we started conversing.  Her 8th grade daughter, a cello student, was attending but on her blanket.

As people made their way back to the seats a woman approached me and said, “Excuse me…I have four tickets here for the pavilion and I’m headed home,” as she thrust them into my hand. I gave two to the other woman (that 8th grader couldn’t miss this opportunity), and ran 200 yards to the back where my people were.  I grabbed my brother and we ran (I know –  it’s a funny thing to picture) to the pavilion before the music began and seating stopped.

The next piece, Azul, was by a modern composer, Osvaldo Golijov (b.1960).  The world premiere was on Friday night with Yo-Yo Ma in Boston. There were different instruments, different sounds.  At first it sounded Slavic, then Middle-Eastern, but the prevailing “flavor” seemed like the African plains.  

The final piece was the orchestra playing Ravel’s Bolero.  The conductor conducted the piece with no score!  Most of the time he held the baton backwards with the point facing him.  Watching his hands move, not in the usual four-four pattern but expressively with flow of the music, was captivating. For much of the piece the violins were held and played like guitars!

Darkness descended and the light of citronella candles gave an twinkling ambience over the area.  It was everything and oh! so much more! than I anticipated.  What can I say? One of my life goals has been accomplished.  God has been very kind to me.  I sincerely thank my sister Margaret and her husband John for giving me this incredible gift.                   


Flying with Madeleine

My carry on luggage was heavy because I couldn’t determine the reading mood I’d be in as I traveled across the country, and came prepared for every eventuality.  I settled into the second Crosswicks Journal book by Madeleine L’Engle, The Summer of the Great-Grandmother.  (It’s on my summer reading challenge list, btw)

This sensitive book about her mother’s stay with the family the last summer of her life both captured and held me.  I gladly let people stand in the hot aisles and clammer towards the airplane exit. Time to read a few more pages. Both flights I sat in close proximity to families with young children.  I was so glad, because their chatter and occasional yelps don’t bother me and I could give them space to work through stuff with the kids without dealing with nasty glares and looks. I’ve learned to tune out sounds and distractions when I read. 

I silently hurrahed when I read L’Engle’s words: “death is the enemy and I hate it.”  I underlined with my pencil, shaky lines to match the air pockets we flew through. I commiserated when she agonized about her ability to keep the promise to her mother that she would never put her in a “home”. I chuckled when she ranted about funeral “homes”.  I paused and looked out the window, not really seeing the checkerboard ground below, but needing time to process the words. 

Oh …. Madeleine!! You have such an ability to think and to bring those thoughts to ink and paper.  I’ll gladly fly with you as my companion.

Both life and death are present for me in the house this summer.  I look at Mother, and think that if I am to reflect on the eventual death of her body, of all bodies, in a way that is not destructive, I must never lose sight of those other deaths which precede the final, physical death, the deaths over which we have some freedom; the death of self-will, self-indulgence, self-deception, all those self-devices which instead of making us more fully alive, make us less.