Love of Learning

There are some who wish to learn
for no other reason than
that they may be looked upon as learned,
which is ridiculous vanity. . .

Others desire to learn
that they may
morally instruct others;

that is love.

And, lastly, there are some
who wish to learn
that they may be
themselves edified;
and that is prudence.

~ St. Bernard of Clairvaux
c. 1145
trans. S. J. Eales

This quote is on the front page of the book I’m currently reading, The Civilization of the Middle Ages, by Norman F. Cantor.

How does this quote strike you? 

My answer would be “it all depends on the subject.”  There are some subjects which I barely learn enough to guide my student.  In fact, I just don’t go there.  Every road must have some potholes, and every one of my students has gaps in their knowledge and understanding which will need to be filled in the future.  We do minimums, we all know that, we leave it on the table and walk on by. 

In other areas I have a hunger, a propelling thirst.  I want to understand, I  need to see the connections; I know I’m ignorant (without knowledge) but I want more than the rudiments. I desire discernment, analysis, and synthesis. 

A Frame of Silence

Such a treat last night – a concert held in a gorgeous church by the excellent Williamette University Chamber Choir. 

My favorite piece was Felix Mendelssohn’s Richte Mich Gott (Psalm 43). You didn’t need to know German to tell, by the music, when the choir came to these words. 
 

Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and my God.

Yesterday brought two heavy items for prayer.  Being bathed in beautiful music brought rest, relief and realignment. When the choir finished a piece there was a moment of silence which appropriately captured and contained the wonder.  A young man close by me audibly exhaled after the first piece, as if he had been holding his breath during the whole piece.  The concert ended with the choir’s signature piece Nunc Dimittis the glorious Song of Simeon

Professor Robert Greenberg, of The Teaching Company, on silence after a performance (transcribed from his series Great Masters:Haydn – His Life and Music):

One must always wait for an appropriate amount of silence.  Silence is the frame that surrounds any given piece of music.  We do not clap before the piece begins because we need to frame the beginning with absolute nothingness; and I trust that nothingness also includes no gagging, hacking, coughing or other tubercular signs of respiratory illness.

Likewise the end of the piece should be followed by an equally appropriate pause, that the music may exist within its own space.


Anything that disturbs that space disturbs our perception of the new world we’ve been transported to and has a terribly, terribly dislocating effect in the heart, ear, spirit and mind of the listener.

So let us not be that person who must applaud first.


Runaway Bunny and Brahms

One of the joys of looking and listening is discovering obscure connections. 

I’m listening to a Teaching Company course on Johannes Brahms.  I can’t say enough wonderful things about Professor Robert Greenberg’s music courses.  Greenberg teaches in such a lively, entertaining manner that his subjects breath and pulse and truly come alive. 

Brahm’s Quartet for Four Voices and piano, Op. 31, No. 2, Teasing, based on the poem Teasing by Josef Wenzig has the men singing several lines followed by the women’s response.  Here are the lyrics:

 It's true, my dear, I am now courting,
and I will establish you as my wife;
you will be mine, my dear, truly mine,
and even if you don't also want it.

"Then I'll become a dove with a white form -
I will fly from you, fly into the wood,
and so I may not be yours, may not be yours:
that hour will never come."

I have a flintlock that can fire quickly -
I'll shoot the dove down in the wood;
You will be mine, my dear, truly mine,
and even if you don't also want it.

"Then I'll become a little fish, a golden fish -
I'll spring into the fresh water;
and so I may not be yours, may not be yours:
that hour will never come."

I have however a net that fishes very well;
I will catch me this golden fish in the water.
You will be mine, my dear, truly mine,
and even if you don't also want it.

"Then I'll become a hare, full of swiftness -
and run in the fields, the broad fields.
and so I may not be yours, may not be yours:
that hour will never come."

I have however a hound that's smart and fine;
he'll catch me that hare in the fields.
You will be mine, my dear, truly mine,
and even if you don't also want it.

Are you a Margaret Wise Brown fan? (If not, you should be!)  Do you recognize The Runaway Bunny?

Once there was a little bunny who wanted to run away.
So he said to his mother, “I am running away.”
“If you run away,” said his mother, “I will run after you.
For you are my little bunny.”

“If you run after me,” said the little bunny,
“I will become a fish in a trout stream
and I will swim away from you.”

“If you become a fish in a trout stream,” said his mother,
“I will become a fisherman and I will fish for you.”

The book continues in the same vein.  It’s a delightful book to read aloud to a young child, making the little bunny’s voice high and squeaky and the mother’s voice calm and low. It captures the pull and push of budding independence and the security of a mother’s love.  I sure like the theme much better in the context of a mother’s love than as talk between a man and a woman.  

Who knew that you would find a German Lieder in classic children’s literature?  Isn’t that just plain fun?

Eating with Augustine

There can be no hope for me except in your great mercy.  Give me the grace to do as you command, and command me to do what you will!  You command us to control our bodily desires.  And, as we are told, when I knew that no man can be master of himself, except of God’s bounty, I was wise enough already to know whence the gift came. [quote from Apocrypha – Wisdom 8:21]  Truly it is by continence [moderation] that we are made as one and regain than unity of self which we lost by falling apart in the search for a variety of pleasures. (p.233)

For the process itself [eating] is a pleasure and there is no other means of satisfying hunger except the one which we are obliged to take.  And although the purpose of eating and drinking is to preserve health, in its train there follows an ominous kind of enjoyment, which often tries to outstrip it, so that it is really for the sake of pleasure that I do what I claim to do and mean to do for the sake of my health.  Moreover, health and enjoyment have not the same requirements, for what is sufficient for health is not enough for enjoyment, and it is often hard to tell whether the body, which must be cared for, requires further nourishment, or whether we are being deceived by the allurements of greed demanding to be gratified.  My unhappy soul welcomes this uncertainty, using it to vindicate and excuse itself. (p.235)

Every day I try my hardest to resist these temptations.  I call for your helping hand and tell you of my difficulties, because this is a problem which I have not yet resolved. … Drunkenness is far from me. By your grace may you prevent it from coming hear! But there have been times when overeating has stolen upon your servant.  By your mercy may you keep it far from me!

Give me strength, O Lord, so that I may do all things.  Give me the grace to do as you command, and command me to do what you will!

How do you respond to these quotes?  Do you agree that we are hopeless without God’s mercy?  Is enjoyment of food ominous?  Is it wrong to eat for any other reason than to preserve health?  Does his struggle strike a chord with you?

I find Augustine’s grasp of the heart issues involved with overeating very helpful.  Dependence on God’s mercy, grace and strength is essential to controlling bodily desires.  The second quote reminds me of the maxim “Do you eat to live or live to eat?”  While I don’t view enjoyment of food as a menace, I know that the enjoyment factor is often the reason why overeating has stolen upon this servant. 

I would love to come to a place where I eat in moderation six days a week (it is work in my mind – you know, being moderate) and feast on the Lord’s Day, celebrating His deliverance. 

There is a lot to process in these words of Augustine.  I’d love to hear your thoughts.
   


Magister Dilectus (Beloved Teacher)

Janie asked me to write a post about this Latin teacher whom I refer to so often. I solicited essays from two friends who also studied Latin.  Bonnie at Btolly and Brenda at Tanabu Girl are writing today about our beloved Mr. F. (We always called him Mister even though he was a Ph.D.) Together we have a trifecta tribute!

When we decided to learn Latin, we were desperate for help.  After a year of groping on our own towards one handhold of understanding I started praying and making phone calls.  I randomly asked people over 50 if they knew Latin.  “Well, not really; I took it in high school but don’t remember a thing,”  was the general response.  One phone call followed another as we tracked the scent of a Latin teacher. 

Eventually I was led to a professor at our local university and she was intrigued with the idea, but didn’t imagine where she would find time.  The next words out of her mouth changed our lives.  “You need to call Dr. F.  He is a retired classics professor who recently moved here with his wife.”  As luck would have it (heh heh) my husband had been contracted to do some work in their home.  My husband told me to wait in calling Dr. F. until he’d done a little background check of his own.  He came home one day and exclaimed, “Do you know how many languages this guy knows?  And he knows Biblical Greek!”  But more than anything, he was impressed with Mr. F’s attitude.  He was not pompous, arrogant, or weird – quite the opposite.

There are moments in your life that are indelibly imprinted on your brain.  I remember odd details about making the “cold call” to Dr. F.  For privacy and peace I was in our garage shivering and staring out the window of the garage door and contemplating the spider webs above the header.  After he answered the phone I explained who I was and that I represented a group of about 25, mostly kids and some parents, who would like to learn Latin; would he be willing to teach us?  His first response was, “Do you know what you are getting yourself into?  It’s not quite the same as learning Spanish.”  To which I rejoined that we would be willing to give it a try if he would be willing to take us on.

So began six years of the best teaching I have ever received.  We met one night a week for two hours so our progress was necessarily slow.  I think we went back to the beginning of Wheelock’s four or five times to shore up our faulty foundation.  Here was a man who had taught the best and brightest grad students, a shining star in the world of classics, drilling young teens on the rudiments of Latin patiently, carefully, without a hint of condescension.   I showed him my nephew’s Latin book; as he looked at the author’s name on the title page he exclaimed, “Oh my, yes! I had this fellow for a student.”

So we learned Latin.  We learned the idiom (at times he corrected the Wheelock answer to make it more idiomatically correct); we learned grammar; we declined nouns and conjugated verbs.  He told us that we were taught femina because it’s a first declension noun; however, mulier is the more common word in Latin for woman. Beyond that we learned the stories behind the sentences which we translated.  Ah, the stories! Mr. F has an encyclopedic memory and could connect words and sentences to stories from classical antiquity, medieval lore, literary episodes and current events. My boys soaked up the story of the battle of Marathon as told by the beloved Mr. F.  Wheelock’s Latin was just a springboard for teaching.  His examples to illustrate a concept came from the wide world of his reading and study.  I’ll never, no never, forget when he showed us the ethical dative and quoted Jane Austen using it. Who knew you could find the ethical dative in Jane Austen?

The Latin class became a culture class: we listened to Carmina Burana and other pieces of classical music.  He would bring a painting out and give us a lesson in art appreciation as he explained elements of the art.  He read us poems, excerpts from literature, a column from the Wall Street Journal.  We read through some Latin psalms, early church hymns, Latin poems.  A Homerian scholar, he quoted us Dido’s story in the Greek and explained it to us.  He showed us humor in unexpected places. Mr. F. was several times a guest lecturer in my co-op literature classes. 

The F’s love to name inanimate objects.  Their car was Abishag: a comfort in their old age.  They lived on a lovely piece of land and enjoyed cultivating and husbanding the property.  Mentally they divided it into the twelve tribes of Israel; Mr. F would tell his wife, “I’ll be working on Asher this morning.”  I can’t remember half of the great names they had but they were clever and fun.  Soon he will retire a second time and they will move back east.  The house they have purchased is grander than any they have previously lived in.  Their name for it? Pemberly!

At some point the class shifted from Mr. F’s house to our house.  Magister Dilectus and his wife joined us for dinner before class began.  Although we came from different perspectives theologically and perhaps philosophically, we enjoyed sweet times of communion around our table.  We now regard each other as life-long friends.  When I wish to give myself a special treat, a phone call visit with these dear friends is the thing.   

One of our first students went on to a well-respected liberal arts college (and is now a medical doctor).  When one of his professors asked Eric how he came to know Latin as a home schooler he mentioned Mr. F’s name.  His professor’s eyes bugged out and he said, “How did you get time with him?”  Eric replied that Mr. F. had retired and lived in his home town.  Thus began guest lectures at this college and eventually an invitation to return to teaching.  And our beloved Latin teacher and his equally beloved wife (a scholar in her own right) moved away to a new stage in their lives. 

By the end of our class we were down to three students; we had completed 36 of the 40 chapters of Wheelock’s.  But we learned a wealth of information, and had been infected with a desire to learn, to ask questions, to seek wisdom, to love truth, beauty and goodness. 

I may or may not pursue further formal studies when my stint as MagistraMater (teacher/mom) is completed. This one thing I know with knowledge deep in my bones: my Latin class with Mr. F. will be my Golden Age of learning.  Multiple times daily I look at a word and see the Latin behind it.  I feel like I’ve been given a secret code or a special set of glasses that makes the bright colors pop out.   My world has been expanded far beyond my expectations. 

How does one express her gratitude for such a gift?

                                                                                        

       

        Beloved Teacher,

        Nothing is better than a life of greatest diligence.                                                                       

Off Schedule, Perfect Timing

Officially, we are behind in school.  Wedding preparations and other life events have crowded our schedule.  But! In the glorious timing of our behindness we get to read Athanasius’s On the Incarnation during Advent.  How awesome (a word I very seldom use) is that? 

Athanasius is a great Trinitarian hero.  I get tingly and throat-lumpy whenever I sing or hear this verse in O Come All Ye Faithful:

God of God, Light of Light;
Lo, he abhors not the Virgin’s womb:
Very God, begotten, not created;

I usually whisper a quick prayer, “Thank you, Lord, for Athanasius.”  If not for him, we would not sing that verse.

Short version of a great story:  Athanasius Contra Mundum (Athanasius against the world) is a well known phrase from early church history.  A controversy boiled over in the fourth century.  A man named Arian had persuaded most of the bishops that Christ was just a man.  Athanasius strove for the doctrine of the deity of Christ. Someone said to the Great A. “Athanasius, the whole world is against you.”  His reply was, “Then Athanasius is against the world.”

A bonus is the Introduction by C.S. Lewis.  Can I tempt you with some Lewis quotes?

There is a strange idea abroad that in every subject the ancient books should be read only by the professionals, and that the amateur should content himself with the modern books.

~     ~     ~

It is a good rule, after reading a new book, never to allow yourself another new one till you have read an old one in between.  If that is too much for you, you should at least read one old one to every three new ones.

~     ~     ~

The only palliative [for chronological blindness] is to keep the clean sea breeze of the centuries blowing through our minds, and this can be done only by reading old books.

So what do you think of those quotes?  Do you agree or disagree?  Are you like me, who agrees in theory, but has not put it into practice?

We’re reading Athanasius – yessssssss!

Fine Art Friday – Gérôme

 

                                   The Christian Martyrs’ Last Prayer by Jean-Léon Gérôme

You can see a larger scale of this print here.  We’ve almost finished Eusebius’ The Church History, which is full of stories about martyrs.  Eusebius not only paints pictures of the brave, courageous martyrs; he tells of those who escaped martyrdom, who under the strain “sacrificed” [to the Roman god].  This was a time of great unrest with a reign of an emperor lasting 2-5 years.  Because there were alternating periods of persecution and peace, there were folks who denied their faith under pressure and then repented and came back to the church.  

The response of church leaders to those who had recanted and subsequently returned to the church became a major point of dissention.  Some bishops required rebaptism and some sort of purification; some bishops [incuding Novatus] refused to offer any forgiveness and with contempt damned the repentant recantors with no hope of salvation.  The orthodox bishops disagreed. A synod convened and

“It was decreed unanimously that Novatus, his companions in arrogance, and all who supported his hatred and inhumanity to the brethren should be considered outside the church, but that those brothers who had fallen should be treated and restored with the medicine of repentance.” p. 239

Another divisive issue involved which day to celebrate Easter.  One side favored strict adherence to the precise date on the Jewish calendar for Passover and celebrated on whichever day of the week it fell on [absolute date].  The other side believed strongly that Easter should be celebrated on the day of the resurrection (Sunday) [absolute day].  This was no small quarrel: strong words were used to describe the opponents and whole dioceses were excommunicated.  Polycarp and Anicetus, two leaders, provided a great example.

“And when the blessed Polycarp visited Rome in Anicetus’s time, though they had minor disagreements on other matters, they made peace immediately, having no wish to quarrel on this point. Anicetus could not persuade Polycarp…nor did Polycarp persuade Anicetus… Nevertheless, they communed with each other, and in church Anicetus yielded…to Polycarp, obviously out of respect. They parted from each other in peace, and peace in the whole church was maintained both by those who observed and those who did not.” p. 199


 

Bach’s Passacaglia in C Minor for Organ

People!  PEOPLE!!  PEOPLE!!! I’ve just been introduced to the most glorious piece of music:
Bach’s Passacaglia in C Minor for Organ. 
    Thank you,  Dr. Greenberg for using this piece to illustrate Baroque instrumental forms;
    Thank you, Teaching Company for hiring one of my new heroes, Dr. Greenberg; 
    Thank you David for these tapes;
    Thank you Johann Sebastian Bach for your unparalleled genius and mastery, for your Soli Deo Glorias;
    Thank you Lord for Bach.  

This music drew my husband and son in from distant parts of the house; we all stood in silence, time suspended, and wondered at the beauty, marveled at the glory. Until this moment I thought Bach’s Toccata and Fugue in D minor was  the pinnacle of magnificent organ music.  The Passacaglia doesn’t surpass the Toccata, but it matches it. 

Here’s the deal:  if you only have a minute go here.  Scroll down just past the opening page and you can hear a sample from Disc 1, No. 6. If you have the time (and it is SOOO worth it) to download and listen to the entire piece than go here.  Scroll until the little box on the side is 2/3 down the page.  The Passacaglia is just below the picture of the blind organist from Germany.  Under Passacaglia & Fugue you will want to click on the upper right choice.  It took my DSL connection about 20 minutes to download and than 7:15 minutes to listen. 

I wish you could hear Dr. Greenberg explain this piece and how to listen to it.  This definition of passacaglia might help.  There is a strict structure to this form.  It begins with a baseline, eight measures, heard alone.  This baseline will repeat (20 times in Bach’s piece) but the upper voices will be varied. 

It is so powerful.  I want this piece played at my funeral. 


Bountiful Booty

I love being the baby of the family.  With six older siblings, I am the happy recipient of  hand-me-downs.  Don’t think clothing here.  Think cookbooks, piano music, and most recently, Teaching Company Tapes.  Oh yeah!  My  PA brother has a plethora of  these tapes.  I bought a suitcase,  filled it with tapes and brought them home. 

This afternoon my son and I are making applesauce while we listen to Robert Greenburg’s How to  Listen to and Understand Great Music. We laughed aloud when he explained the difference between  German language songs and Italian  songs.   Greenburg plays music on the piano and from CDs to illustrate his points.  My heart  jumps as I hear  my 15-yr old son hum along.  He knows this music!  He likes this music!  Sigh.  But then, who can help but liking Bach?

Explaining the history of music inevitably includes the history of the world.  I am so thankful for the past 12 years of homeschooling.  I can follow and correlate, synthesize if you will, the lectures in a way that I can’t imagine doing had I not had the learning that comes with teaching.  It is so satisfying to build upon previous learning; to add a room or a story to the edifice which is our life.  

Isn’t this the most exciting thing?  Bring on the long nights; bring on bathrooms that need cleaning; bring on shirts which need ironing; bring on dough which needs kneading; bring it on, baby!  I. am. ready. 

How to Teach by Bronson Alcott

Bronson Alcott’s Maxims on Education

GENERAL MAXIMS: By which to regulate the instructor’s practice in instruction

1. To teach, with a sense of accountableness to the profession
2. To teach, with reference to eternity
3. To teach, as an agent of the Great Instructor
4. To teach, depending on the Divine Blessings for success
5. To teach, as the former of Character, and the promoter of the collective happiness of Man.

These are the first five of 58 maxims that were found in Bronson Alcott’s Journals.  I bought a calligraphied copy on my visit to the Orchard House and it is hanging on my wall.  From time to time I will post groups of five for your perusal.  While I differ with Mr. Alcott’s transcendentalism, veganism, and other things, I am sure, there is so much to be gleaned from these maxims. 

That reminds me about a book: Fruitlands, Louisa May Alcott Made Perfect by Gloria Whelan.  This book was a howler!  It is a fictionalized account of the Alcott’s experiment with transcendentalism and a vegan lifestyle.  What is so funny in the book is Louisa’s two diaries: One for public consumption which parrots the thoughts she is supposed to have.  The other, private diary reveals her true thoughts.  Whether she meant to or not, Whelan exposes the fallacies of the philosophy behind the utopian experiment.  If I were the mother of a nine year old girl, I would read this book together, or together separately, and discuss it.  There are many things to ponder.