Warrior of Joy

Well, it’s April.  The word comes from the Latin aperire “to open”.  It’s when buds and blossoms open.  Sometimes hearts open to love in this lovely month. 

April is also designated as Poetry Month.  Although I don’t intend to post a poem every day, I had to share this one which just makes me giggle.  Doesn’t it just capture the euphoria of fresh love?  Can’t you see this “changed man” singing, striding, laughing, pulling weeds?

The Changed Man
by Robert Phillips

If you were to hear me imitating Pavarotti
in
the shower every morning, you’d know
how much you have changed my
life.

If you were to see me stride across the park,
waving to
strangers, then you would know
I am a changed man—like
Scrooge

awakened from his bad dreams feeling feather-
light,
angel-happy, laughing the father
of a long line of bright laughs—

“It
is still not too late to change my life!”
It is changed. Me, who felt
short-changed.
Because of you I no longer hate my body.

Because of you
I buy new clothes.
Because of you I’m a warrior of joy.
Because of you and
me. Drop by

this Saturday morning and discover me
fiercely pulling
weeds gladly, dedicated
as a born-again gardener.

Drop by on
Sunday—I’ll Turtlewax
your sky-blue sports car, no sweat. I’ll greet

enemies with a handshake, forgive debtors

with a papal largesse. It’s
all because
of you. Because of you and me,
I’ve become one changed man.

Funeral Music

Thanks to many who prayed for the service for my friends’ son.

Here’s a list of prelude and postlude music I played. I tried to choose a mix between hymns, Celtic-sounding “mournful” music, and popular songs, keeping in mind that the group wasn’t a highbrow audience.  For All the Saints and Softly and Tenderly wouldn’t have been good choices this time.  I had intended to play What A Friend We Have in Jesus and regret forgetting it.

Untitled Hymn (Come to Jesus) by Chris Rice
Homeward Bound by Marta Keen as heard played by William Joseph
Ashokan Farewell by Jay Ungar
Come, Ye Sinners, Poor and Needy
Grace by David Foster and William Joseph
I Will Remember You by Sarah McLachlan
Give Me Jesus, arranged by Fernando Ortega
There Is a Fountain
I Am a Poor Wayfaring Stranger
People Get Ready, Eva Cassidy rendition

Eva Cassidy is a new find – oh, mama, that girl could sing!! Sad story: she died (1996) at age 33 of cancer, an unknown singer.  One of her recordings got some air time in the UK and they went wacko-wild over her.  That popularity bounced back to the states.  Listen!!  If you have three and 1/2 minutes this is well worth your time. Have any of you heard her?

The samples (# 7 and #11) of William Joseph are also excellent.   I would like to thank my sister and sister-in-law for their incredible help with song selections.  For you musicians out there, musicnotes.com was a lifesaver.  I could buy the music, download and print it in five minutes.  They also allow you to print the first page for free so you get an idea on the arrangement.  Bookmark that page!

Do you have a song you would really like at your funeral or memorial service?

Clean Grief

It’s been a one-two punch week.

I reconnected with an old friend after 25 years of silence.  We talked on the phone this week.  At one time we were very close, a mutual love of the Lord Jesus bonding us together.  Since then she has rejected what we once shared and switched to a different, wider path, enlightened thought and new allegiances.

The next day brought news that our friend’s son had taken his life.  There are no words.

These are times of trouble; it’s time to read Ecclesiastes.

Sorrow can be such a complicated thing.  It easily gets muddied with regrets, splattered with the wrong actions of the deceased, splotched with omissions, and speckled with questions.  More than one friend has found evidence of gross immorality on his father’s computer after his death.

One of the gifts we can give to those we leave behind is the gift of clean grief.  The difference between clean and mucked-up grief is the difference between the cut of a surgeon’s sterilized knife and the  puncture of a rusty nail.   Both are incredibly painful, both require a time of healing, and both leave scars; but the puncture requires much cleansing in order to heal.

What brings clean grief?  Clean living – living by the law of God.  Regular confession, repentance, courage to confront the secret sins, honest evaluation, transparent friendships, the fear of God, trusting in Christ alone to cleanse.  

What about when things go south?  When there is a murky mess left?  The first response should be, “there, but for the grace of God, go I”.  Look for instruction, what can I learn from this?  Be silent. Finally, there is no viable option but to trust our Creator and leave it in His hands.  Read Ecclesiastes.

The conclusion, when all has been heard, is:
fear God and keep His commandments,
because this applies to every person.
Because God will bring every act to judgment,
everything which is hidden, whether it is good or evil.
Ecclesiastes 12:13-14

Nothing in my hand I bring,
simply to thy cross I cling;
naked, come to thee for dress,
helpless, look to thee for grace;
foul, I to the Fountain fly;
wash me, Savior, or I die.

  from Rock of Ages,
Augustus Toplady

Simple Pleasures in March

~   Daffodils

~   Fresh chives

~   Open windows (not today, it’s 35° out)

~   An empty ironing basket
(there were capris from the fall at the bottom!)

~    Nourishing soups and grilling in the same month

~   The easiest, best bread…ever

~   Clean, weed-free dirt in the flower beds

~   Witnessing the flush of young love…in the spring

~ Tchaikovsky’s music

Words

Hey, all you word birds: do you have an “aha” moment when the meaning of word became clear to you?  Do share them; I love words and I love aha moments.

I remember:

window = wind hole
to make manifest (make clear)  = comes from hitting palm (hand, manus) against forehead,
                                                    the action you make when you  “get it”

Here are some words which have tickled me in my medieval history reading:

Canterbury = Kent town (Augustine of Kent)
vassal = Celtic word for boy
cardinal = hinge of door (hinges of the great papal door)
sheriff = shire reeve

Janie once again has inspired me – this time to list new vocabulary I learn in my reading. If I wasn’t sure-certain about a word, I looked it up.  What a great thing, because the author of this college textbook uses these words regularly. 

vicissitude = changeable
hegemony = preponderant influence, authority, especially one nation over others
jejune = lacking nutritive value, dull, unsatisfying
lugubrious = mournful
compurgation = to clear completely, clearing of accused person by oaths
fisc = a state or royal  treasury
febrile = or or relating to fever, feverish
autarky = self-sufficient, policy of establishing a self-sufficient and independent national economy
abnegation = denial, especially self-denial
nexus = connection, link, a connected group or series
tautologies = needless repetition of ideas, statement or word
efflorescence = period or state of flowering, blossoming, culmination
turpitude = depravity, inherent baseness
apotheosis = deification, quintessence, the perfect example
eremitic = a recluse or hermit, especially a religious recluse
cenobitic = member of a convent, from koinos, common + bios, life

When I looked up the last two, I found this quirky poem.  Does anyone understand the last two lines?  Will you make them manifest to me, please?

    O Coenobite, O coenobite,
Monastical gregarian,
You differ from the anchorite,
That solitudinarian:
With vollied prayers you wound Old Nick;
With dropping shots he makes him sick.
Quincy Giles

[Addendum:
Old Nick = the Devil.
you = cenobite, one from a group
vollied prayers = simultaneously discharged, from a group
dropping shots = anchorites besides being alone were on mountain tops
he = anchorite
him = Old Nick]

Eat Drink Man Woman

                                                                    HT: Sweetbriar Patch    

Eat Drink Man Woman directed by Ang Lee, the director of Sense and Sensibility, is a foreign film about family and food set in Taiwan.  The opening scenes are sumptious shots of food preparation.  

Mr. Chu, a senior chef, fixes an abundant feast each Sunday for his three grown daughters.  There is no connectedness between them and the weekly meal is a hodge-podge of clipped communication, random announcements, and dutiful picking at the food.  The daughters dread the “Sunday torture” as they call it and we all mourn the wasted opportunity, the wasted effort of Mr. Chu, the senseless charade.  The girls want to break away, seeking a romantic liason to provide their ticket out of the family.  

Even Mr. Chu realizes that life is adrift:  “Eat, drink, man, woman. Basic human desires. Can’t avoid them. All my
life, that’s all I’ve ever done. It pisses me off. Is that all there is
to life?”  
As the family structure changes, we learn more about each one’s relationship to food and eating.  I anticipated the movie ending with a final feast of reconciled relationships.  It does end with a small feast, a poignant inversion of the opening scene.

I’m quite taken with foreign films, especially ones set in modern
times.  They offer slices of daily life in the local culture.  The
opening sequence begins with motorcycles roaring down a highway and
pans to the quiet serenity of the kitchen, with its small, satisfying sounds of a knife on wood.  The home is a quiet sanctuary from the bustling, urban milieu outside. An interesting twist in the culture of Taiwan is the role of Christianity in the life of the eldest daughter. She prays aloud before each feast while her family waits, tolerant, indifferent and silent.  

As I babbled on to Curt about this movie, he asked the best question (he excels at good questions):  What would this film be like if it were redeemed?   I pondered and experienced a brief moment of clarity: the food stuff was exquisite.  It inspired me to take more care with my meals, menus and presentations.  But it was not done for the glory of God.  The most delicious food, prepared with love, presented in glorious array is not enough.

It was strange to be processing my thoughts about this movie I watched on Saturday as we enjoyed a four-generation family feast at my son’s house on Sunday.  The smells of garlic and salmon wafted through the house as we talked, lingered, and then gathered around the table.  That there was no occasion to celebrate gave an even richer significance to the evening.   
   

Love of Learning

There are some who wish to learn
for no other reason than
that they may be looked upon as learned,
which is ridiculous vanity. . .

Others desire to learn
that they may
morally instruct others;

that is love.

And, lastly, there are some
who wish to learn
that they may be
themselves edified;
and that is prudence.

~ St. Bernard of Clairvaux
c. 1145
trans. S. J. Eales

This quote is on the front page of the book I’m currently reading, The Civilization of the Middle Ages, by Norman F. Cantor.

How does this quote strike you? 

My answer would be “it all depends on the subject.”  There are some subjects which I barely learn enough to guide my student.  In fact, I just don’t go there.  Every road must have some potholes, and every one of my students has gaps in their knowledge and understanding which will need to be filled in the future.  We do minimums, we all know that, we leave it on the table and walk on by. 

In other areas I have a hunger, a propelling thirst.  I want to understand, I  need to see the connections; I know I’m ignorant (without knowledge) but I want more than the rudiments. I desire discernment, analysis, and synthesis. 

Today’s Poem

             Grace for a Child
                Robert Herrick

       Here a little child I stand,
       Heaving up my either hand;
       Cold as Paddocks though they be,
       Here I lift them up to Thee,
       For a Benizon to fall
       On our meat, and on us all.  Amen.

       Paddocks are toads, Benizon means blessing

The Top 100 Books

The Telegraph reports on a poll in Britain in which people were asked to name ten books they couldn’t live without and the top contenders are on this list. Ever since Cindy posted her list (others have also but I’m too lazy to track them down),  I’ve thought it would be fun to be a copycat.  It’s just for fun, Okay?

So here’s my list: ones I’ve read are bold, ones I’d like to read are italic, ones I’m ?clueless? about ??

1 Pride and Prejudice – Jane Austen

2 The Lord of the Rings – JRR Tolkien

3 Jane Eyre – Charlotte Bronte

4 Harry Potter series – JK Rowling – I read the first two books, to only Harry is in bold

5 To Kill a Mockingbird – Harper Lee – it’s time to re-read this one (updated 2010: I did!)

6 The Bible

7 Wuthering Heights – Emily Bronte

8= Nineteen Eighty Four – George Orwell

8= His Dark Materials – Philip Pullman

10 Great Expectations – Charles Dickens

11 Little Women – Louisa M Alcott

12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles – Thomas Hardy

13 Catch 22 – Joseph Heller

14 Complete Works of Shakespeare  I’m trying to read four a year, I’ve probably read 1/4

15 Rebecca – Daphne Du Maurier

16 The Hobbit – JRR Tolkien

17 Birdsong – Sebastian Faulks

18 Catcher in the Rye – JD Salinger

19 The Time Traveller’s Wife – Audrey Niffenegger ???

20 Middlemarch – George Eliot

21 Gone With The Wind – Margaret Mitchell

22 The Great Gatsby – F Scott Fitzgerald

23 Bleak House – Charles Dickens

24 War and Peace – Leo Tolstoy

25 The Hitch Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy – Douglas Adams

26 Brideshead Revisited – Evelyn Waugh

27 Crime and Punishment – Fyodor Dostoyevsky  I really liked the Brothers Karamozov, C & P is on my shelf

28 Grapes of Wrath – John Steinbeck

29 Alice in Wonderland – Lewis Carroll

30 The Wind in the Willows – Kenneth Grahame

31 Anna Karenina – Leo Tolstoy

32 David Copperfield – Charles Dickens

33 Chronicles of Narnia – CS Lewis

34 Emma – Jane Austen

35 Persuasion – Jane Austen

36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe – CS Lewis

37 The Kite Runner – Khaled Hosseini

38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin – Louis De Bernieres

39 Memoirs of a Geisha – Arthur Golden

40 Winnie the Pooh – AA Milne

41 Animal Farm – George Orwell  

42 The Da Vinci Code – Dan Brown

43 One Hundred Years of Solitude – Gabriel Garcia Marquez  I’m not sure if I want to (2010 update: on my shelf)

44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney – John Irving

45 The Woman in White – Wilkie Collins

46 Anne of Green Gables – LM Montgomery

47 Far From The Madding Crowd – Thomas Hardy

48 The Handmaid’s Tale – Margaret Atwood ???

49 Lord of the Flies – William Golding

50 Atonement – Ian McEwan ??? (2010: on my shelf)

51 Life of Pi – Yann Martel ???

52 Dune – Frank Herbert ???

53 Cold Comfort Farm – Stella Gibbons ???  (2010: on my wish list)

54 Sense and Sensibility – Jane Austen

55 A Suitable Boy – Vikram Seth  I almost bought this book based on a recommendation, but it’s over 1,000 pages. Yikes!

56 The Shadow of the Wind – Carlos Ruiz Zafon ??

57 A Tale Of Two Cities – Charles Dickens

58 Brave New World – Aldous Huxley

59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time – Mark Haddon  I hate to admit this, but I read this in a Reader’s Digest Abridgment, in a doctor’s office or something like that

60 Love In The Time Of Cholera – Gabriel Garcia Marquez ???

61 Of Mice and Men – John Steinbeck

62 Lolita – Vladimir Nabokov

63 The Secret History – Donna Tartt ???

64 The Lovely Bones – Alice Sebold ???

65 Count of Monte Cristo – Alexandre Dumas

66 On The Road – Jack Kerouac

67 Jude the Obscure – Thomas Hardy

68 Bridget Jones’s Diary – Helen Fielding

69 Midnight’s Children – Salman Rushdie

70 Moby Dick – Herman Melville

71 Oliver Twist – Charles Dickens

72 Dracula – Bram Stoker

73 The Secret Garden – Frances Hodgson Burnett

74 Notes From A Small Island – Bill Bryson ??? (2010: on my shelf)

75 Ulysses – James Joyce you’ve got to be kidding, right, THIS book is on this list?

76 The Bell Jar – Sylvia Plath ? one ? means I’ve heard of it, but…barely

77 Swallows and Amazons – Arthur Ransome  on my bookshelf, does that count?

78 Germinal – Emile Zola

79 Vanity Fair – William Makepeace Thackeray I’ve never read Thackeray; really would like to (2010 update: read it!)

80 Possession – AS Byatt ???

81 A Christmas Carol – Charles Dickens

82 Cloud Atlas – David Mitchell ???

83 The Color Purple – Alice Walker

84 The Remains of the Day – Kazuo Ishiguro

85 Madame Bovary – Gustave Flaubert

86 A Fine Balance – Rohinton Mistry ???

87 Charlotte’s Web – EB White

88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven – Mitch Alborn

89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes – Sir Arthur Conan Doyle

90 The Faraway Tree Collection – Enid Blyton Oh! She is my friend’s favorite children’s author! Very Hard to find in the US, very Dear in the British sense of the word

91 Heart of Darkness – Joseph Conrad

92 The Little Prince – Antoine De Saint-Exupery This was the best part of French 3 in high school

93 The Wasp Factory – Iain Banks ???

94 Watership Down – Richard Adams

95 A Confederacy of Dunces – John Kennedy Toole ???

96 A Town Like Alice – Nevil Shute ??? (2010: I watched the movie, does that count? grins)

97 The Three Musketeers – Alexandre Dumas

98 Hamlet – William Shakespeare

99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory – Roald Dahl

100 Les Miserables – Victor Hugo

Do you have any knowledge about books with ???  Either “definitely don’t waste your time” or “I can’t believe you haven’t heard of ___; it’s marvelous.” 

We could make a list, couldn’t we precious, of all the wonderful books that are not on this list.